Reflection + Critical Exegesis (killller) down!
YIPEEEYAYYAYYAY. : D

It's chilly December again.

The season of lovin'! Yeah even if you haven't got a lover teehee.

When people tell you time flies... believe them.

I won't be seeing these girls, Syl too, as much next year

or the bunch of funnysmart boys once we officially graduate.

School has been manageable thanks to awfully helpful mates, 

and of course our cooperation as a class to draggggg for extensions.

HAHAHA PROCRASTINATOR UNITED FOR THE WIN.

Ischmimi why you so cute?

Soon it'll be December again.
Christmas Day last year we celebrated her birthday,

and a month later.... she left us for good.

Yay received a text message from Apple.

My second i5 (brand new, scratch-free) is arriving in approx. 3 days!

 

This means a formal goodbye to my trusty 3G that I've thrown around,

dropped like 10928237 times and still in positively good condition!

For funs' sake, and to offset the boredom of waiting for shipment,

I dekorated it with cutesy animal stickers muahaha..... TAADAH.

See see the king of my zoo? BLUE ELEPHANT.

Couldn't find it in orange. ;(

 

The pop up stickers are like bloody expensive.

Cheap thrill I know, but Ivy and I had balls of laughter

deciding where each animal should be placed to make sense!

 

Okayokay I am turning mid-twenties in.. *horror* don't-want-to-continue.

Away.
 

Uncle Bk was born a little slower than others.

Naturally, out of my mom's three siblings, he is also the least educated.

 

Uncle Bk spent most of his working life serving famous bak-ku-teh at Balestier's branch.

The lady boss always looked after his interests.

But when she passed away a few years back his colleagues started to turn nasty.

Knowing he was intellectually challenged, they made fun and took advantage of him.

There was no longer anyone to stand up for him.

He was eventually fired for no good reason.

 

He then found his next job - a restaurant helper at MBS.

Today, mom told me Uncle Bk has resigned. Once again he is left with no income. 

Being slightly slower my uncle is sometimes ignorant to people's criticisms.

He neither bears grudges nor takes offence to petty insults.

He doesn't know how to.

So if he had indeed chosen to leave, it must be the result of severe mistreatment.

 

In better times, he never failed to surprise his wife with her fave chili crab every week.

She is considering a divorce now because of his inability to bring money home.

What happened to 'through thick and thin'?

 

My heart sank when I heard that.

I don't understand these buggers.

My uncle, although slow in interpreting and conversation, is a very genuine person.

 Compared to my richer relatives who only bothered about which elite schools we attended,

he fulfilled his role as a loving uncle to us nieces.

It angers me to imagine how lost/upset he could be feeling.

 

I am ranting. I can only rant. There is nothing I can do against discrimination.

I don't know who are the horrible characters. It could be the whole world.

A friend once introduced this song, said the lyrics' awesome.

 

The only calibration that counts is how much heart people invest, how much they ignore their fears of being hurt or caught out or humiliated. And the only thing people regret is that they didn't live boldly enough, that they didn't invest enough heart, didn't love enough. Nothing else really counts at all. ―Ted Hughes

What happens in the heart, simply happens.

It does. I know for sure now.

But life's not simple and love isn't free after all.

There are other people who will hurt with certain decisions.

There is fear that stands in the way of how and what we feel. Fear speaks to us more than love.

There is no actual freedom to love the person our heart begs us to.

If love was (truly) free, we need not flee.

Slept 3 hours yesterday (drifting in and out).
And I was so freaking tired.... that I forgot to ZIP UP.

 

Zz butter brain.

: (

 

My eyes weigh 250 kilograms.
Temperature at 38.1 degree.

Word count due Thursday? 7000.
: (
: (

THANK YOU JY THANK YOU JY

THANK YOU YOU, JY! :D

6a.m in the morning. Finally submitted CSC poster.

 

Nice?! SAY YES
eyes almost popped out designing from scratch.

 

JY awesomely lent me her Macbook to work with.

It is 10 billion times faster than Little Red Crawling Book (my netbook's name).

Had problems converting to pdf... cranky layout..

so she being the TECHKID patiently solved all the tiny booboos.

And I was being very obsessive compulsive about the alignments.

Hahahahaha THANK YOU JY!

K session with Banana Boys earlier, Pratahouse

then felt upsetz that they were going home to bed while I rushed to Starbucks.

Super glad for JY and Shawn's company.

They bully me big-time every single night but I think it's a love-hate relationship.

Heehee.

Jam-packed with endless assignments.

Trying to enjoy while it lasts though because 2013+ forever, welcome nine-to-five.

And I know I'll miss school.

 

On a side note I miss my friends.

Sorry to those I haven't met in a long while;

Thank you to those who always accomodate, meeting me nearby etc.

I refuse to step foot into town because its too bustling.

I am currently in an extremely neighborhood-ish mode. Hahaha.

BUT I promise y'all will see me soon!

Mid Sept Mid Sept Mid Sept.

 

Good morning, goodnight.

2012

2009

As Fel and I always say:
We are each other's best gifts that came out of the past.

Everything happens for a reason. :D

What an awesome friendship we brought forward and made the effort to keep together.

Thank you babygirl. I hope I have been to you what you are to me. xoxo

p/s: hehehhe let's never stop being retarded.

Starbucks crew are the dope.
Damn, I forgot no nets beyond 2AM and they treated me to fave GTRB (again!).

Small gestures like these really makes one's day.
This place is second home. Good memories mostly.

The reason for several newfound friends.

Life's a short trip.

Hesitate and we'll lose good timing.

Remember them?

A BANANA A DAY KEEPS THE EMO AWAY.

Good morning! Still in your pyjamas?

Have you heard that bananas are happy boosters?

Eating the fruit is a ‘perfect way to sooth your nervous system, reducing irritability and impulsive behaviors’!

I have added it into breakfast since a week ago to cure my skin allergy,

and gymmin religiously because bananas are high in calories (healthy calories though).

Exams are in two days.

There's a Mount Everest of readings I haven't started on. Hello keep calm, breathe.

Hahahahaha! Anyway I am currently in what I term as 'study retreat'--

time away from worldly sins i.e. whatsapp and SMS.

It feels liberating to not check your phone 24/7,

lesser distractions give you the solitude needed to make better decisions.

I wondered: everyone appears on that damn screen...
everyone but , then again it probably don't matter.

And dear friends I am not emo, nor emotional. The first line just rhymes!!

Hahah okaydoke out for brunch with Ivy before muggin'.

What an eventful night. Again--extremely unproductive.

*shakes head* but relax there's always tomorrow.

Collected my denim 3quarts from G&F (yes it is nicely tailored)!

For once Xin Wang HK Cafe didn't let me down.

Papaya soup surprisingly good. Healthy too. Second yay.

Met up with Stella for dinner.... finally!

She's like a big sister constantly showering me with care and concern since TLL days.

Im so damn happy she's found much bliss in her current marriage and 3 cute baby girls! :)

Hello "lobang" in hair. Because Im too cool to retake.
Ha ha ha ha!

Starbucks to prepare for looming exams.

Ended up....... Highway Rider throughout.

It is a bloody addictive app!! Especially with very competitive people LMAO.

Josh, Zihao, Yang and I sat at the same table swerving and swaying to our phones,

the game seriously challenges one's patience or rather t-temper.

This has been thrashed by Zihao's 165.
The sensitive new-age guy did it within his first few attempts,
while Josh (110) and I (58) spent half a night and morning respectively.

FWWAAAH. I AM MISS FAIL.

Foo came along 

and thats about the time Dharnie (drunk UK fella) decided to befriend us

after having 16 cans of beer and walking a mile to get another 3.

He announced his entire life story very slurrily. We mostly hem-and-hawed in response.

Apparently he tried to cup a woman's breast at Zirca the week before,

and was visibly quite disappointed the action didn't go beyond that.

He also has a Japanese wife (skyping her at Starbucks) and a three-year-old son.

He told me not to judge him. He assured us he does love his wife to bits.

But how? I already passed judgement. HAHAHHAHA.

Overall an entertaining conversation from an interesting character though.

JY hiding an ulterior motive sent me home. It was my turn to share life story.

She asked, I answered and she listened with a little too much enthusiasm.

"It isn't supposed to be exciting JY!!!!!!!"

Anyway thank you for the LIFT. Both Willy-Wonka's and the real deal.

Now exhausted from talking, gaming, laughing all night and typing.

I didn't know exhaustion can come from doing nothing.

I am going to bed. Good morning!

Have an exsaiting weekend ahead! :D

“If the moon smiled she would resemble you.

You leave the same impression

Of something beautiful, but annihilating.”

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At the favorite midnight spot, rocking (or not) my new hair.

Change. How many are able to embrace change instantly?

Visiting the salon always excites me. There's a kind of suspense.

To err is human... even trusty Patrick might fail at times.

Whenever I snip off just a little hair I feel discontented.

I like the liberation of mega-change, snip snip snip away!

My netbook's webcam miraculously started working by the way:

The gaps? Very intentional haha.

Cutting hair is number 1 stress-relief activity.

What if....

you're always in my line of sight

how do I go ahead and click unlike?

SUPPORT LOCAL!

爱一个人 没爱到难道就会怎麼样

有些事情 就不要拆穿

我没有说谎 是爱情说谎

它带你来 骗我说渴望的有可能有希望

是很感谢今晚的相伴

但我竟然有些不习惯

Everything comes to pass if we do not act on it.
Sometimes, just let it pass.

It is too tiring to make second guesses.
I need some distance.

Messed up with the right one,

now I'm falling for all the wrong stars.

While at Starbucks as usual last night.... I received a whatsapp text.

Bestie said hello and pasted me a LMAO link.

http://fun.omy.sg/common/media/popup/?playlistPath=/global/media/Showbiz/MV%2BOnline/Story/OMYStory201204191214-328649&type=video&section=Showbiz&startIndex=1

 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!!

His MV is finally out--and with my ex coaches Hideaki and Estella!
Doubly excites.

I am forbidden from posting this on FB guess it's fine to share here sssshh.

Some of you have met him (hello nat) hehe you will probably find this bloodyyy amusing.

Laughter aside I think he did better than expected for a first-timer,
given that he is famous for being very 'woody' thumbs up clapclap!

p/s: Reaaally couldn't stop laughing within first minute of playing the video.

"I get goosebumps watching myself. So I haven't seen it."

And that's what he said hahahaha.

Back from hiatus.

Last semester's 2 exam-heavy modules literally killed us.

Thick readers.... lecture notes... textbook. Survived though yipeeyay!

Just booked combined tutorial slots for the upcoming units

we're going to see new faces from the later batch this time, heh.

Crashed at Starbucks every night for a week into the papers. 11pm-6am no joke,

most were productive but uhhh oh it has cultivated into habit.

I was never able to study at home (for obvious reasons)

and anyway daytime's too bright, warm, noisy--to sum it up distracting.

Its worst now.

If you ring my doorbell in the day you'll probably only find me sleeping.

Maybe cranky singing. Haha.

Still it makes a whole world of difference to be taking subjects you love.

Sigh little more than half a year before graduation.

I don't want to rejoin the workforce along with all its politics and grown-up nonsense.

Rar goodnight.

You know how most girls are into the BFF-hype.

I had my last 'best friend' in primary three, and that was it.

Nothing dramatic happened. We drifted eventually.

It isn't because I haven't found good people in my life since then.

But as I grew up, I also grew up knowing not to count on forever.

Best, friend, forever.

Three separate words that I find (almost) impossible to define.

Don't take this the wrong way.

I am blessed with a handful of close ones, each too awesome to compare.

Sometimes though... I wish I had a duplicate of me.

She understands, never misunderstands.

She would be the best reflection of my good and bads,

a friend like no other and most importantly she'll stick with me forever.

No wonder I talk to myself in the nights. Haha.

Don't you wish you were your own best friend?

Many aspiring singers in Singapore but getting to know one,

and attend his performances as someone who appreciates a fucking good voice

it's amazing.

I watch them onstage doing the thing they love,

it's funny how we share the same motivations and dream...

there are the ones who chase and end up nowhere,

there are the ones who chase and ultimately succeed,

and there are those, who never dared to give much chase.

I think that's the worst. That's me.

I left you out inside my heart
How easily this could be the start

And rip my life apart

Like a bowerbird collecting blue

See me gather words to let you know

"It's hard to let this go"

But I'm making up my mind

I'll forget you in time

You still make me cry

Like a song of the east

That loses its centre, but always finds its way back home

Oh how this bird has flown

So I'm making up my mind

Gonna rescue myself tonight

Yeah I'm making up my mind

I'll forget you in time

I am leaving you

You are leaving me

We've sung our song

And we chose to roll on

Although this love never fades, it's time

To forget the road we never traveled along

Coming to terms.

You're trying so hard to speak it pains me.

See you later 老Mm.

I will have no eyeliner on this time.

So I've decided to stay on Blogger, has served me well since 2006.

Yes Sir! Blue is the way to go. For now at least.

It is supposedly my lucky color. We shall see heh.

We were very excited to shop at Changi City Point though a little skeptical at first.

Its new, I like that you don't have to butt-knock with frenzy CNY shoppers.

You guys should check out that place sometime.

Mega buy from G2000!

Wish there was a better picture. Iphone has its limitations.

Should I jump on the Tumblr bandwagon?
But this space is where all my memories are stacked.
So maybe I'll just edit the template... starting to look too yellow.
Random entry yeah you know the serious part always comes after some rambling. ;b

Hahaha aw too cute
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Thats why 500 Days of Summer will always be my favorite movie.


HAPP(Y) MERR(Y) 2012 TO ALL!

What are you doing New Year's Eve?

Disappointment is an understatement.

Why am I so distracted??????!

:..\

Two days to submission, 3000-word essay untouched.

2500-word essay stuck at half.

If I were to complete in time I must be a genius!

Hahaha still can come here type type.

Theres still a TRUCKFUL of albums that hasn't seen the light of day.

Feb 2011 is ridiculously overdue.

Goodness gracious.

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 "GG"

One of the best weekends in a long while.

Times like these you know you can only count on family.

To breakaway from whatever disguise put on for the outside world,
to crumble and just be yourself--be afraid, flustered, be gloomy even....
not needing to struggle against the blues.
They will understand. If they can't, they accept you in spite of it all.

Although usually a big joker to us Daddypops isn't a person good with affection.
But lately I see that he has made my problem his problem.
He's starting to listen, instead of just providing solutions.
Digging through a colorful archive of life stories
he's like a careful doctor injecting positivity into every part of my being.
I see how far he'd go. I see how much he wants me to lose that frown.

During our early morning walk at Botanic Gardens
pacing step by step he said this:

"Everyone's darkest hour lasts no longer than 60 minutes.

We live with what we get."

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyay my HERO, or 师奶杀手

Very handsome now right?!!! *beams*

As of today I haven't found it in me to express xo freely
(Pops hinted the other time he'd appreciate hugs from us so cute!)
but I love you very much. Thankyous' never enough.

I am Sunshine because my father is The Sun.

The Twilight Saga: Breaking Dawn Part(I)

What makes someone beautiful?

Never Say Never.
I believe in the above, and not because its title of a Justin Bieber movie. 

Haha though yesss I adore the boy.

Never Back Down.

Coincidentally title of another movie.

But I refuse to take the 'never back down' approach.

As much as we can insist, and persist in an attitude or task,

there comes a time we all need to check ourselves.

Otherwise life becomes a more difficult journey than necessary.

Thats what I think so yeah.

We shouldn't confuse the two.

 

"Make Love, Not War"

But war doesn't only exist between nations;
sometimes a lifelong struggle within the family... amongst best friends.
The scariest being when war lies within yourself.

"Make Love, Not War"
This is how people learn to get back on their feet right?
Hence my current windows wallpaper.
I need some time alone.
Wait for me, if you're my loved one. (:

Goodnight funny world.

 

ỳọṳḁṙḙṫḣḕḁṕṕḷḕṍḟḿẏḕẏẻ♥

Pick-up hello. Not Throw-up bye bye.

He's such a gem I hate to lose, yet incapable of holding.

___


Life has taken its toll on me.

I wish I could write about happier things but to be honest 

such immense discomfort and worrying thoughts are lethal when combined.

And somehow or rather, Im the only one to blame.

Coming clean.

For a good half year I indulged in alcohol every weekend,

a package deal of late nights and crashing after sunrise.

The routine was addictive with awesome friends.

At that point of time, no telltale signs that my body struggled to keep up.

It is true. Tons of people enjoy a havoc lifestyle with no serious consequences.

Hell, I don't even smoke nor drink excessively. So why me?

There's no asking why. Some are blessed, some more unfortunate.

I just happen to be the latter.

It is unimaginably frightening.

Because I can do without a lot of things but no, not my sight.

Even the slightest possibility pulls me into worry-wart mode.
We take for granted. We panic way too late.

Anyway Im alright friends, will definitely keep the faith going.

Over the past year I've learnt to complain less.
You fuss about a problem and the problem seems to multiply.
Gotten to the point where I might disappear for a bit to compose myself, by myself.
Hahahaha does it make any sense?
Im thankful for every one of your texts, shall say it again--I love yall.
To Bbam especially in spite of my cowardly move
still you're trying your best to be here for me.
From the very start (slurry/nonsensical/always gettin into silly fixes haha)
giving "developed" advice whenever Im a helpless state of mind.
Thank you thank you thank you. :]


And here's what I have to push me the extra mile:

The Devil has put a penalty on all things we enjoy in life.
Either we suffer in health or we suffer in soul, or we get fat.
Albert Einstein

The health of the eye seems to demand a horizon.

We are never tired, so long as we can see far enough.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

Faith and prayer are the vitamins of the soul;

Man cannot live in health without them.

Mahalia Jackson

"Faith is taking the first step when you don't see the whole staircase."

I want her hair, the length of curls just right!

But hmmmm.... what if it makes me look like a kid?!

HOW NOW BROWN COW. (TBG's current phrase haha)

Look at how much Meatball (left, obviously :b) has grown!

Hahahaha they're so dam cute just the photo makes me grin from ear-to-ear.

RIP

Home from impromptu Real Steel showing!

Ran 4 km today (gym feels awesome after such a long hiatus)

and a good movie makes the night even better.

So Punkie and I took a quick shower before driving out.

Yay big fans of chillax dates we were both in....

Hoodies! And Im gonna buy me more comfort wear, heh.

Anyway as if Hugh Jackman and Dakota Goyo (kid star) didn't already rock the screen,

the movie's soundtrack is equally dope. Mega badass!!

When I first saw the trailer--"ohmy gosh. isn't that Till I Collapse"
One of Eminem's earlier songs (2002 thats like, 9 years ago yeaaaah)

cus back then I was totally hooked on it.

Till the roof comes off
Till the lights go out
Till my legs give out
Can't shut my mouth
Till the smoke clears out
And my high burns out
Imma rip these shit
Till my bones collapse

hahaha now you know I grew up an angsty teen.

Sometimes.

7 hours and 7000 miles away

My paternal grandmother passed on yesterday.

Semi-conscious for almost half a year and physically unresponsive,

Im actually glad her pain's now relieved.

Surely it isn't comfortable to be put on a drip that long.

Daddypops seems fine.

They have known for some time nothing can be done.

Goodbye Novena-Ahma.

"Studies have proven that listening to music strengthens the right-hemisphere of the brain.
It literally changes the structure.

Those same studies have found that people who listen to music are generally smarter

and have more emotional intelligence than those who don’t."

For real? I spend at least 2 hours on music everyday!

Haha then again, people who listen to a lot of music are rather um, eccentric.

Remember saying I'll post this but never did.
My favorite electric guitarist.

'Formal' message. From him its cutest--I swear cutest ever.
Reading it makes my heart melt.
But it also makes my eyes tingle with sadness.
This, is exactly why I've come to like you
so much so myself found it hard to believe.

Really one of a kind.
I'll definitely miss you.
I know it because you're still here and I feel that lil tug.

 

Im thankful enough our paths even crossed.

Would never trade the chance for anything in the world.

And yes, probably no one checks in here anymore so....

wedding pictures for you sta*ker Bammbam. 

Our marriage very rocking, very havoc. I likeeee.

Gee, more than a month since I last logged in.

Been busier than usual with this semester's Digital Media unit--

creating a video portrait from scratch.

All the filming and editing slots took up the weekends... 

but still I had to party to balance out the stress.

So life has been two extremes; you find me either at school or in the club.

Ha ha ha.

I need to quit procrastinating and pen down one million thoughts.

My Aquarian head is burstg from the one million thoughts.

I have been very happy with recent company.

Despite seeing the same faces almost every Friday and Saturday,

I enjoy moments of sprightly zest right down to the comedic suppers.

As the end of Sept nears, this bunch of awesome people will be gone

and I guess we gotta deal.

I-I love you like a love song baby
And I keep it in re-pe-pe-peat

Helluva catchy!

DC paper was better than expected. 

Tomorrow's dedicated to report and Saturday--Saturday is PLAY.

0400, Im tryna digest the Asam flavored maggi.

Stomach on fire.
Hmmmmmmm.
 

Whazzup folks.
I wonder who still checks this space... to you reading,
hurhur, thanks for having faith!

0349, just had a last dose of coffee.
(I don't usually take coffee but it works like drug to keep me awake.
A must-drink for long nights.)

Been sleeping at 6AM to catch up, complete assignments on time bla.

Final exam this Thu--Debating Comms.
Hooray 'cause we received an extension--Report to a Client Mon 27 Jun!

Shall rush it by Friday anyway.

Need the weekend to let loose, going mad from theories in my head.

重点：

I PROMISE TO UPLOAD ALL THE OVERDUE VIZUALS.

From February. Massive flood of faces.

I PROMISE TO UPLOAD ALL THE OVERDUE VIZUALS.

Will be back after uh, alls done with this semester okay?

Which is very very, very soon. Cannot wait.

Alright enough.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything

Collaboration by fave Youtube artistes. / P.o.r as I mug.
Christina Grimmie's voice has soo much character while Sam Tsui is sigh.
The epitome of my ideal:

☺ White

♯ Charismatic

☼ Awesome Smile

♫ Talent

♥ Sophisticated Boyish

√ All Checked.

Hahaha fine I coined the term "sophisticated-boyish". Yknow what I mean.

NO MORE PARTYING TILL JULY.
Reports, gym and chillack days... Yippedoo!

8]

BIEBER FEVER?

I saw him today - what timing and coincidence.

Fate works like magic. True story.

Yes I have remnants of love left. There's nothing to hide.

But to move on was never about accepting someone new.

It is for me, envisioning his happiness.
And Im almost near.

Be smiling again in the morning.
Thank you angels.

The things I do to myself.

Sometimes, being ahead of the game you know what hurts.

You know what not to click. Still it doesn't stop you. 

Thank God the drinks last night has me feeling a little numb today.

I should be alright and I really am.

This - is just an uneasy tug from within.

Down with mad cough/throat for almost a month.

Unable to sing (helllll that sucked), gym or even focus in class. 

Now all the med's done but sickness isn't.

And the room seems to be closing in on me.

Shall go take a jog.

Teeheh REFRESH CAROL!

Sam oh Sam Tsui, with a voice and smile like that
who would ever hold it against you?

Lazy Sunday. Playing on repeat.
Recent posts are mostly videos but you know music really makes up my world.
To just chillack at home, laze on the bed,
listen to some awesome covers, google lyrics and sing along...
Yeah thats my idea of a good ol stay-in day.

Bored? So am I.
Here's cold entertainment after the jump.
ps: Please finish the song first or I'll hold it against you.

Been tryna figure Dreamweaver since morning,

cross-eyed scrolling through the html/css guide.

Webfolio's due soon. Panicky mode.

By jinxed coincidence my closest girls have reclaimed singlehood

in a span of 2 months or less, including dearest Sissy.

I think we are fortunate though, to have each other for company.

I didn't really reach out to anyone last year (by choice) because they were then committed. 

It felt like I was better dealing alone.

Just glad that we all share a common understanding now 

instead of whining about life or blaming the people.

So lately Im guilty (!) but not too guilty, of partying more than usual.

Guess in recognizing my own flaws and learning from the past...

Im actually enjoying the alcohol, the dancefloor, the interesting convos

and being genuinely happy with fantastic friends.

+++ DON'T SLUT IT UP / PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR +++

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul

Life is good.

School, awesome stayovers and laugh-till-you-drop friends.

Literally. I remb rolling on the floor, clutching my stomach side

and ohhh at one instance.... tearing even. - _-)

 

Must-watch. Not your usual sappy plot,

instead an inventive romedy film that's fricken hilarious

and really speaks of people with different abilities to commit.

If you think about it.... how true.

"There are only two kinds of men in the world.

The ones who cheat and the ones who want to."

 (十个男人九个坏，一个想作怪。)

To this the female lead retorts 那我要找第十一个。

Hahahahhaha!!

Might be a long wait but Mister Eleven exists.

Once you start doubting, you'll never find him.

Someone mentioned above is from the male perspective

but it doesn't make a difference, does it.

How many of you have been through this cycle more than once? 

I have. Exactly why I'd rather be alone now. 

There are no fluctuating or declining stages to fret about.

To me the final outcome of breaking apart acts like gravity.

Eventually, my dear girlfriends and I will overcome that pull with the right one. 

High up we won't ever go back where we started.
Strangers again? Nah.

10,001 things to blog about.

But sho fricken lazy.... how?!???

Went to the gym instead. Finally a productive workout session!

Small girl vigorously pedalling while head-bobbing to rock tunes.

Must have been quite a mad sight ha ha.

Flood of pictures soon.
For now check out Boyce Avenue please. They're awesome acoustic.
How nice it is to have someone special sing for you. Dontya think?
#mysecretfantasy

Made a wrong turn once or twice

Dug my way out blood and fire
Bad decisions that's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated misplaced misunderstood

Mister "no way, it's all good"

It didn't slow me down

Mistaken, always second guessing

Underestimated

Look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like you're less than

Less than perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like you're nothin'

You are perfect to me.

You're so mean

When you talk about yourself

You were wrong

Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead

So complicated

Look how we all make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough

I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

I've seen you do the same

You're perfect, you're perfect to me.

Even the seemingly best disappoints.

Let's just do well ourselves, shall we.

Laura Marling, Brit musician I can really relate to.

That much I cried. You should hit this twice.

One for her spellbinding performance, another for the lyrics.

I know I said I love you, but I'm thinking I was wrong

I'm the first to admit that I'm still pretty young

And I never meant to hurt you when I wrote you ten love songs.

That guy that I could never get, 'cause his girlfriend was pretty fit

And everyone who knew her loved her so

Well I made you leave her for me and now I'm feeling pretty mean

But my mind has fucked me over more times than any man could ever know.

Maybe I should give up, give in.

Give up trying to be thin.

Give up and turn into my mother

God knows I love her.

But I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state

Watch my steady lonesome gait, and be aware

I will never love a man 'cause love and pain go hand in hand

And I can't do it, again.

So we stayed up late one night to try and get our problems right

But I couldn't get into his head just what was going through my mind

Think he knew where I was going 'cause he put Ryan Adams on

I think he thinks it makes me weak but it only ever makes me strong

I've got this friend who sounds just like him

Now he's the man I'd leave you for, the man that I just adore like you.

The same man he turns to me

He said "I got to tell you how I feel, if god could make the perfect girl for me it would be you."

And my god told me not to tell about how much do you love your fella

I don't know more everyday

Not in this new romantic way.

I'll always be your first love

You'll always be my first love.

I will never love a man 'cause I could never hurt a man

Not in this new romantic way.
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I promised noncommitment till this independence is deep-rooted.

And with the past months of dissecting life under a microscope
I have become a (perhaps scarily) self-sufficient person.

It is too true.

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone." Orson Welles

We can and we will still make sacrifices,

as long as we know there is no obligation to receive the same, we are self-sufficient.

I've taken control of my happiness for a while now.

Reset my thoughts instead of faulting the people responsible for my emotions.

Truthfully speaking.... no one is.

Been on the phone a lot with my girls. I used to be in their place.
The calls somehow affirm I am on the right track.

Relationships complement us. Even then, that is the best it gets.

A wise friend said, love loses appeal when love becomes work.
There is absolutely no reason to place expectations on any one person.

Not a partner, not friends, not family. You are your own homeground.

This segmented mindset's my newfound realization.
Being self-sufficient is so important. It frees the unnecessary priorities.

That said! I'll always believe in love and be eager to give,

how shall I say.... I arrived on Earth with such hope. Haha. :b
But I'd keep in mind never to cripple myself without it.

"都这么熟了还要握手"
Hahaha. Yep this is the title post.

I am finally going to write about my birthday.

February it was but looking at the photos makes me feel truly blessed to have them in life.

Close as we are, our clique hardly celebrates birthdays, it will presumably be spent with special ones.

(We all had partners, still do except for me of course!)

ps: jump break enabled for visual-heavy entries.

Last Friday - 38.9.
Today (a week later) - 38.8.
This is not cool. I was looking forward to the weekend.

Now its more brain damage party than paradise. :(


The end of semester calls for a post.
Screwed the finals yest but thats okay, because it was a mass-screwing thing.
Hahahaha. *insert half of middle finger*
What was Fang thinking when she set the dam paper.
Nandos with my class, then Sanctum.
Sure it cannot compare to Avatar but I appreciate the father-son relationship.
And how they didn't let Carl recover like he never just saw his girlfriend (spoiler).
Because thats hardly possible. Physically or mentally.

Timbre @ Old School for celebratory drinks.
Maybe ice-breaking too. ;b
Revealed my tolerance or non, to them. I really need to step up.
Thank you all.

So hurray holidays, hurry away headache.
Sleeping now. 11:19PM.
Pigtures soon.