They say good girls get fairytale endings.
My wants and naivety believes in the impossible.
Flood of water seeped through my pillow in black streaks;
It's a mixture of pain, fatigue, solitude, fear and hopelessness.
Anger in small parts.
Desperation has come and gone.
A safety float is tossed aside when your feet touches ground.
Past week's been a challenge.
Exhausting and mentally-draining.
Exhausting and mentally-draining.
All I needed was a safety float to surround me,
for me to Fray my arms wildly but stillll surround me.
That's when I realized.... Hell I didn't even have one.
Exact moment it hit me I started to Thrash about.
So I sank to the very bottom. My screams left me.
SOS never arrived.
At least not the colorful striped heart-shaped float I imagined.
Pictures always look too good to be true.
}Edit at 11:12PM
Geesh I was just browsing my favorite singer,
clicked on her new song Forever & Almost Always.
Now playing.
Always wanted to write a song with a story like that.
I swear I've tried more than once but this is way, way too close.
She's dam awesome.
And at this time you know.. I want to think its God. :]
So the story goes on down
The less traveled road
It's a variation on
The one I was told
And although it's not the same
It's awful close, yeah
In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing
So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can, yeah
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care
In the corner of my mind I know too well
Oh that surely even I deserve the best
But instead of leaving
I just put the issue to bed
And outta my head
Oh and just when I believe
You've changed for good
Well you go and prove me wrong
Just like I knew you would
When I run out of second chances
You give me that look
And you're off the hook
Because you're mine
Forever and almost always
Oh and I'm fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care
Oh, oh, What am I still doing here
Oh, oh, It's all becoming so clear
You'll be mine
Forever and almost always
It ain't right
To just love me when you can, Oh
I won't wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care
Forever and almost always
No it ain't right
To just love me when you can, baby
Ain't gonna wait patiently
I won't wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care.
So the story goes on down
The less traveled road
It's a variation on
The one I was told
And although it's not the same
It's awful close, yeah
In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing
So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can, yeah
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care
In the corner of my mind I know too well
Oh that surely even I deserve the best
But instead of leaving
I just put the issue to bed
And outta my head
Oh and just when I believe
You've changed for good
Well you go and prove me wrong
Just like I knew you would
When I run out of second chances
You give me that look
And you're off the hook
Because you're mine
Forever and almost always
Oh and I'm fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care
Oh, oh, What am I still doing here
Oh, oh, It's all becoming so clear
You'll be mine
Forever and almost always
It ain't right
To just love me when you can, Oh
I won't wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care
Forever and almost always
No it ain't right
To just love me when you can, baby
Ain't gonna wait patiently
I won't wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care.