# 287

Feeling disappointed, in people.

Whoever whatever whenever.

Nothing new actually. I knew it long ago.

People just aim to talk about themselves.
They listen when they accidentally fall into the same misery.

They care only if they remember how it's like.

Other than that, who gives a fuck about your story?
Who needs to hear sorrow while basking in happy days?

This is how I learnt to keep quiet.

Come or go - People will be a bonus.

I'll be safe attached to myself.
And really.... no one else.

Strange, but a decision that makes me happy. (:

I'ma sleep early tonight.

With Eminem's music in the background.

Yes Eminem. You didn't hear wrong.

He puts me to sleep.

# 286

Keyboard lesson at Jayy's, L4D2 Parang version,

late night Harry Potter the movie with BigSis.

Yea it's a teeny weeny step. Im almost starting from scratch

but at least I feel closer to what I wanna achieve in music

- being able to play and sing, possibly create my own songs.

So an eventful & happy day helps to take the mind off missing pieces in life.
(:


On a side note:

Ohhhmg Emma Watson has perfect features to die for.

Um though I'd still prefer Kristen Stewart any time!! Heh

She's the epitome of striking beauty and aura. No you cannot disagree.

Love that aloofness offscreen, versatility in her sense of dressing

(proven: girls need not always be in tight black dresses to look good)..

G-Gorgeous. Charms I off I feet.

# 285

Finally done packing the clutter of a wardrobe!!

Hoho it looks mighty neat now I am excited to go out

just so I can choose clothes haha.

Blood runs thicker than water.

My number 1 is coming home in January.

Chelly chelly chelly. *chants*

With BigSis!

Following visuals taken last year at Peishan's housewarming:

(In the midst of 'shorter hair experiment' before I snipped it alll off)

No regrets, though Im growing it long again I think. ;]

Photoshoot of lil Prince.

I ♥ my couzins.

Hardly write about them as Chelly's in Australia, Peishan's a proud mommy of 2 already.

But we share a truckload of memories growing up together;

weekly dinners, cny gambling, hot milo and stayovers etc...

because our parents are close enough to get 3 properties right beside one another.

-_zzz Heh.

 

Time flies. PP (secret nick for ps) started a family of her own.

She used to tell us the simple dream of finding a good husband and raising lovely children.

Indeed! Mission accomplished.

There's nothing simple about it actually, to identify your soulmate out of the many.

The confidence in building a life for two and more..

thats why Im really happy for her. Clap clap

 

And bonus brownie: PP's older boy Zenden super adorable!

Look attttt him!

 

Ohmy elephanto lantern cute x2

HAHAHAHAHHA HOT AH??!? (double meaning)

Aawww :*)

I'll bet Ray baby is as handsome as his brother hee.

Okay running late.

Gona head town to meet my click clique.

TBG 4-1 Hopefully we can catch a movie.

Have a great weekend!

# 284

Many days like today will make a day with no return.

I should stop expecting her to act as a mother.

All the unnecessary disappointment and pain.

Been years, yet the root of problem is too simple.

Every huge fight I curse. I swear. I hate.

These emotions are so intense I believe it is permanent.

After some time though, I am looking at her again through eyes of a daughter to mother.

I tread fucking carefully in my own house.

Even when I have become tolerant towards her nonsense and mastered the art of ignoring....
Why is it still so dam difficult to keep peace?

Pops and BigSis have probably forgiven her. Definitely not forget.

I'll never be able to enjoy a mother's unconditional love no matter how I envy others or hope for change.
What am I waiting for?

BigSis said it didn't hurt anymore the day she gave up expecting her to behave like one.
I just need-to-let-go.

Me. I find it impossible to ever forgive.

Bad karma maybe. Afterall she brought us up.

But few can understand the extremity of losing a feeling called 'guilt'.
I've tried my best to fix things.

Lucky for us AD came into our lives.

What started out as a slightly awkward relationship gradually developed into an endearing family count.

She's genuinely concerned about our well-being
and from the small quiet gestures done for us/my daddy,

there's nothing more heartwarming than her presence.

Once after a heated argument w Pops,
reached home to receive an sms explaining on behalf of my Dad,

reminding me that despite harsh words he loves me a lot

and letting me know I can come to her whenever, for whatever.

Mega sweet. Almost mommy to me. (*:
Thank God.

# 283

专属 最后也变平凡

# 282

What is the world coming to?!

And we're not even talking about plastic surgery.

Haha this is alien funny though.

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Ooh finally got my hands on Eat Pray Love (book) yesterday.

Thankew BigSis!

Yes, something to do while accing Ivy on study trips.

Life has been random. Time alone sets me thinking a lot.

Remove fear, enter focus.

4-word phrase that was the root of all incapabilities.

e.g. How much I wish I could sing without fear.

Working doubly hard on it.

# 281

Harmonisation.