People who'll listen and share, laugh with me,

sing about life, enjoy hearty meals together;

you who is happiness in the simplest way possible,

Come stand by me.

I am a deep thinker. That I won't deny.

Even so the people I cherish most are ironically the ones who do not evoke my thoughts.

I love the people I don't have to spend time analyzing, scrutinising and then quietly judging.

Tis, triggered by an auto-defense mechanism.

The ones that are easy going, contented,
the non schemers, non bitches and non complicated.

Hardly an intentionally bad thought in mind they make the (my) world such a better place.

The ones I feel safe with.

Because when you finally tire of all the drama
you just want to go home to these gems (extremely rare).

So if you'll listen and share, laugh with me,
sing about life, enjoy hearty meals together;
if you are happiness in the simplest way possible,
Come stand by me.

I've not much to promise you but my true self.
This is my most recent ambition.

I am flying~ happy now, Longnecker extended the submission.
One day but still time. Forgot to upload these previously.

02.02.11 CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE

 Family. Yes I am morphing into Daddypops.

Everyone, you are not allowed to say my Dad is less than handsome.

while doing my report late at night
i suddenly turned to the right

the empty desk beside

our hearty chats and retarded fights

or sometimes, just one time

the figure behind grumbling 'bright lights'

Really miss having you around Sissy.

The room's much too quiet

it feels like Im the last man standing.

Courage. Sometimes I applause myself.
When it comes to matters (literally) of the heart,

I drive straight into the wall. Not without careful thought...

but with no fear of getting spurned after careful thought.

I do what I feel the need to do. And almost always I am glad.

On a side note my room is too gloomy to inspire the hardworking me.

The entire setting with drawn curtains, orange lights

and huge bed right behind the workplace table

just makes me want to carry on sleeping all day long.

Thats exactly what happened today.

But a ha! Just repositioned the laptop, shall work through the night.

By the way BMW has always been my favorite car brand (convertibles o!mg).

Insanely busy with school.
Finals round the corner, two bigass reports due.
Shall squeeze a visual update 'cause photos are piling up.
Do not wince. Yes Im blogging about CNY, now.

Shock, confusion, surprise, frustration, pending irrelevance

all rolled into a night.

But clearly for now there's only one route I should follow.

We don't take angels from the sky.

Started voice-blogging on i3G a while back
and at 0148AM last night/this morning I recorded another.

Maybe one day soon I'll post them up here.

So last night I tossnturn'ed as usual.

It was a random thought that made me ponder;

there are optimistic people around me who seem to embrace happiness.
I used to see it as bullshit - a cliche life-motivational phrase.

But taking time to comprehend the meaning of

Live Every Day Like It's Your Last,

it makes all the sense you couldn't have imagined.

If I were to know life ends tomorrow for me,

wouldn't matter how many faults my mom picked today,

the careless words she said or even the hours she nagged on...

I think I'll be okay.

This mother-daughter bond, however warped it gets, I'd want to cherish.

I think it'd be fine to realize we mightn't ever be together again

because for sure I wouldn't be around anyway

and I'll genuinely want him meeting someone better.

I would pack the day with all things good.
What are wrinkles, some fats, imperfect complexion and height inferiorities

when we're not here to stay. Nothing is here to stay.

No one is forever.

And I guess if only we could see things this way

it just makes living dam much easier.

The friend who isn't quite a good friend on closer inspection,

why does it matter since she still gave comfort, laughter and joy?

People survive (partly die) on expectations.

We become disappointed with a person who has stopped loving us

in the same way we do. Perhaps we haven't. Pain can be alleviated it seems.

People who are happy, or put enough effort trying to be,

they understand what to constantly fight for - today.

They accept that Fate's only promise is in its present.

If he leaves the past behind, then there must be some future worth looking forward.

My mom never faces up to mistakes. Permanent of her at least in this lifetime.
I should probably mend myself to leave a better ink on our relationship.

It's just not right to stand strong for a day and crumble the next.

Happiness ought to be a self-given constant no?

Time to learn how to appreciate, expand what God has blessed me with

because until the day I die this is the shell Iam living in.

Definitely not gonna be a breeze keeping up.

Nevertheless trying is better than not at all.


To my dear friends who are going thru hell,

Live Every Day Like It's Your Last and Some Day You'll Be Right.



Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's too late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you what would you wish you would've done
Yeah gotta start

Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Well if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye?
Should be so careful who we left out of our lives
So when we long for absolution there'll be no one on the line


Soap a few minutes ago (coincidentally):
Things become better when you're happy.
Only then will you be able to attract happy things,
notice happy things, create happy things, share happy things
and gain real happiness.

Common knowledge yet overlooked by most of us.
Shall keep in mind!

Me: .....was such an asshole! *rambling on*

Dad (mega confused face): What's asshole?

10 sec later Dad regains focus: Orrrrrrh, asshole.

Hahahahaha priceless.

"I don't use such language it needs some time to process." 

25hrs out with just 2 hrs shuteye the night before is no joke.

Fell into a deep sleep and for once I had nil dreams.

Yep yesterday was hell productive.

Met Isa for breakfast, rehearsed a little, guided walk (mad relief when over).

I hate me for fearing public speaking so much.

Seems juvenile having anxiety attack when everyone else is chill pill.

Initial plan of rushing home to KO tossed away

because while eating w my classmates, movie sounded good.

Haha. Impromptu bonding. Like!

Time Crisis2 is extinct already sigh.

Some arcade fun before TAB.

Credits to Sneaky Sylvia. ;)

Chillz to acc Xg for some beer but nope no alcohol for me.

It'd have made me cranky way earlier.

Anyway Iam starting to appreciate a sober head.

Overdose of drinks during that rough period and

'hanging over' every other weekend didn't help lessen my pain at all.

Endnote. My father is really very cute.

I am THE WORLD'S BEST SISTER!

Compiled a disc of love-dovey songs handpicked by Sissy for K's birthday
(think If You're Not The One) at the risk of my emonster taking over.

Arranged the tracks in a very professional way hoho,

feels nice knowing the end product'll bring smiles to them.

She's coming to collect it after work. Yippeey.

 

 

Sometime before CNY11.

Had supper w Shi at favorite kwaychup place!

Whole chunk of unglamorous shots for your appreciation.

Neighborhood dates I like teeheheh.