# 46

I AM DEPRESSED. DEPRESSION SETS IN WHEN...

my SEXY is gone. gone!! rwrahhhhhhh!
sold away, collected today.
woke up in the morning and played with him for the last time probably. then the new owners came. took videos maxing out my phone's memory.. of its lovely lil' face.

a freaking Teddy Bear. :'(

very furry, runs to you with its wobbly tiny stubby legs.
tell me how not to fall in love with such a creature ?!
i pray his new home is warmest,
i pray he'll receive top-class treatment. :(((((((

but lucky for me Sunday wasn't entirely ruined by Sexy's departure. Dad + Aunt Doreen fetched Baby and me to Chinatown Pt. apparently when we met up for dinner on Fri, AD noticed i was limping, walked slower than usual.. so offered to buy me new shoes.
i must have appeared damn pathetic thats why LOL. :|

didn't find any heels i particularly liked. drove over to Wisma MNG where i finally chose a wallet. woohooooo which i desperately needed since dont-know-when luh.
to food republic for quite a 'family-catchup' dinner after BigSis joined us. at times like these occasional guilt runs through me, guilt towards my Mom.. sigh.
but guess it can't be explained just by looking at the surface of things nw.

oh well i had a happy day with them. rocks not having to sit public transport in burning weather, HAHA.
thank you to AD for the present, Dad for always being my Mr. Nice, and sweet Baby for shopping everywhere with me. (although i know it almost took your life away & you were secretly kp-ing half the time.) I KNOW IT. ;D right? righttt.

other pix up tmr or whenever..
im tired and my eyes need a rest.
SEXYsexySEXY i'll miss you you small pug.
hopefully your first night out is better than fine. :(

# 45

hellooo i'm back frm blog hiatus.
busy +no mood +no life = blog hiatus.
i have quite a lot of life actually.

town with Phyl last wk, zomg been 2 yrs since we saw each other!! nervous to meet her 1-on1 again after long but it turned out nice. catching up at Starbucks, walking ard (her with her super duper high heels -.-").

she still wants a boyfriend like EMINEM!! in Singapore!
you tell me HOW CAN. HOW CANNNNN !?
miss her very much. calling her mushroom 'cause of her bob hairdo those days. going for the same loser-fied cca where'd we fix mikes and adjust volumes together.
hahaha &studying at Macs'.
ps/ waiting for you to return frm Taiwan. :) more outings!

SHOW Y'ALL SOMETHING.
SOMETHING DAMN FUCKEN ADORABLE...







THE CUTEST LIL' PUGS ON EARTHHH !!

BigSis's three little pugs. MINE TOO OKAY.
i take care and check on them everyday lo!

Pup Number 1: Moo-Moo, because he's spotty like a cow. & all cows go "moo-moo".

Pup Number 2: Benji - fat and greedy and naughty.
everything NOT nice except CUTEEE. x)

Pup Number 3: SEXY, my favorite!!
he got DAMN smokin' HOT eyes aye.
too bad they're sold and worth freaking 2k or so. UGHHHHH. i tell you the way they stutter and walk is super cute, ehhh cuter than penguins.
we agree penguin walks cute yeah?

UNCLE RINGO'S FUNFAIR on Tuesday!! with my Baby!
FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN EVERYONE SHLD GO.
it ends 27th May so HURRY.
10 for two most thrilling rides, 7.50 for ferris wheel.
5 bucks for kidz so-not roller coaster LOL.

we sat the $10 rides, Vortex & Challenger. fucken thrilling esp Vortex. almost threw up our dinner and tht Baby really felt like he's Superman flying into the sky HAHA.. enjoyed myself tre-tremendously. :D
not to mention we escaped with free entry on one.

Vortex. one word SHIOK.

enormous sparkly FERRIS WHEEL we gonna take tmr!
p.ps/ long-awaited ride.. lets make it happen. :)

stuffs he doodled on my CMA notes. lame shit but i so loveee. fuck he drew me a pig and himself some spastic muscle man. o_o" UGH but why am i smiling.

yeah no freakin' idea why i posed like tht.

all i can say "poor old duckie". >(

MATCH-ED. & this pic wasn't even pre-planned.

as always i'll end;
INSANELY YOURS.

# 44

can't fall asleep. not surprising for an insomniac

but theres an extra cause for it tonight...
ugh my blogging is very random.

outing with TBG last thursday!! full force.
sakae at Wheelock for dinner +pix session after.
Qing. Xin. Yins. :))) i still find it amazing how these friendships are kept intact, despite the split of FMUs.
our past clique. maybe gone, maybe will be revived ?
for now ive gt them 3 &its a blessing enough.

:))) )

> DEARRRRR

> KIKI SEAHHHHH

> YINSSSSS

Girlfriends like such.
ps/ come unusual gathering! haha

went to school like a good girl today for IBS roleplay interview. guess i scored quite alrighttt so shall buck up for next assignment i might hit lucky pot and earn my first B+ in 2yrs?? or B. anything more than a stupid C D or F for fishy can LOL. :X

628 hawker for lunch. then yck for homecooked dinner at Mom's. headed hm to watch Alien vs Predators. didnt think i'd be in frequency with such corny shows, turned out exciting though ha. most imptly another day spent with my favorite lil' boy yeah still a boy. wahahaha my Baby. :D

this serves a purpose. p.ps/
a candy for twinnY & Mingyao if y'all guess correctly,
hmmm.. where i gt my pants frm. HAHAH ;)

-
i told myself i won't mention but i'm only human.
insecurities, selfishness, disappointment... sadness.
i feel it all. pls understand. pls be in my shoes.
for my anger, ive already taken it all away.

# 43

blocked nose, sore throat, cream, &pills. >;(

not exactly the best feeling in the world.

caught Wild Hogs the movie with Baby!
COMEDY AT ITS MAX.. he likes their kinda jokes. laughing his tollhouse cookie out beside me.
at the same time asking me why don't i laugh too.
-.= LOL but it is a funny show lahhh.

updates +many many pix.
random eventsss.

Baby's desktop.

... the CPU is fucking nice.
see-through and has colorful bling blings.

"Donut Factory" day. headed over to Raffles City, queued for the famous donuts.

reflective differences. :[
waited 1+ hr for tht orange box he's carrying.

so we bought 12 donuts, fed 2 stomachs!
spot the odd one out? cos' baby bit it off. :(

sweet, thickly baked & flavored roundys.
favorites were Apple, Kaya, Double Choco.
not a donut person but still i found them yummyyy.

feasting on his belated anni prez. :)

back to yck for dinner with Mommy the babysitter.
her lil' toddler Zelia... cuteness aye!

btw she wasn't crying,
was just squirming in delight. :D

had Grandma's burfday celebration last wk.

hilarious we had bottles of Heineken's after dinner and Aunt Cheryl got damn drunk. blabbering nonsense. watched I Not Stupid2 there with my horde of tiny cousins. that movie still makes me tear somehow. love my BigSis.
although you call me chao bobo! hahahaha.

and i'll say Admiralty is a cosy place.
i'm so enjoying the moments.

our lil' supper trips at the playground.
icelemontea+sprite, fries with lots of mayo & chilli, soya bean milk, icecream, oreo cookies, twisties, burgers, strawberry collon, you name it we had it. =)

and very dope ban mian.
but Admiralty wouldn't be Admiralty
without the love of my life.

the words mean everything i really wanna say to you.
might have said them alr, but it stands for my believe.
so 1x, 2x, 50x, 100x, 101x..
i'm still gonna repeat them again.
love love, my Darling.

# 42

strained.
but i wanna carry on.

tired.
yet knowing i can still push on.

helplessness.
its slowly taking over me.
...
this thing called, "his passion".

if only i can be half as important as his other love.
its always not enough.
i want it all the time, it comes and goes.

:[
UNDERSTAND.
I MUST DEAL WITH IT.
I MUST UNDERSTAND.

# 41

tht r a i n b o w after the storm ;
its always especially comforting..
somethin' to be thankful for.
somethin' to strengthen from.

gloomy,grayness,very damn scary.
like strangers,far apart,hanging on a thread.
but yeah

tht r a i n b o w after the storm ;
you make it all worth the while.
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3

seven hearts for every color,
seven for my favorite number.
seven for bliss in seventh heaven,
my seventeenth with you
till ever & forever.