Laura Jenson - Single Girls

They swarm like bees but the pain came slow.... and stinging.

Every photo that should have faded by now,

intactly there, laughing at me with the irony of its non-existence.

Perhaps the past makes way not just for the new,
even the older past. Perhaps people do change.
Know too well I've become the 'voided' one.
In happier times
I remb asking him cheerily if we might fall back to strangers one day,
shouldn't have joked about it. Because one day is here.


And it seemed so impossible then.

Hello world!

Woke up at 0730 this morning.

Walked to my 'lifesaver' vending machine to grab a hot tomato-chicken sandwich.

Had a satisfying breakfast with apple aloe vera juice& watermelon to top it off.

Now Im full. Im heading back to bed.

Hahaha okay, no. Im going to.... study!

Quick update.

03.02.11 CHINESE NEW YEAR 初一

CNY was uneventful this year. As usual.

Big cut in number of relatives we see since the parents split in 05.

Fine I need to get over it it's been 6 years.

Grand Aunt's place, followed by Aunt Karen's for dinner.

Uh huh thats all.

A lot of time spent gorging ourselves on food and basically seated on the couch/es watching tv.

Hands occasionally stretching for red packets.

Overslept; rushed out (hair& face ).

There were just two pictures taken the entire day

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at least I had Sissy and K's company! (:

Oh yep I wanna show yall something

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I've always thought she looked like 小S. Hahahaha.
Now she might kill me for cropping her photo.


Alright, off to meet Brand Equity.

A&P midterm coming Sat urg,
currently hibernating at home with my books.

Posting this during self-bestowed video break.
1 hour vb to every 2 hours of studying.
Plus a lot of TV and food therapy in between.
Im really kind to myself. Hahaha.

DBSK a two-member band today. Still as awesome though.
Said it before I'll say it again
Jung Yunho @0:39 best K dancer.

He's trained in martial arts and it seems to pack the punch into dance.
Mega hot!!


Hahahahaha. Intense.
Not pretty like Kim Hyun Joong
(only Korean star I think gorgeous out of the many gay faces)
but there's something really charismatic about him.
Choreographs the moves, composes music, sings and raps.
Talent talent. Now he's second gorgeous.


Okay I'll quit being awestruck. Doesn't happen often.
Just done with videos so am feeling wow factor. ;D
.. Fck, I drank a mouthful of stale HL milk.
What is this? No odd smell at all!?

Shall go attempt to regurgitate it.
Ohmg.

The 'hot date' in Vday post is obviously my school.
Ohh man why are people calling to ask: WHO?!!?

Hesitated for a long time, wondering if this should be up.

Iam going ahead... for myself.

He probably doesn't follow anyway.

Today struck hard. Not intentionally though.

The number, the month and the mind.

How much I wish I wasn't updating my calendar.
One of those what could have beens.

By the way, this isn't here to say Im still holding on.

Don't mock me please.

But letting go of a person don't mean forgetting.

I cannot look at the date and not feel a tinge of sadness.

I cannot control the sudden trance of auto-rewind.

Most people want a past relationship to become an invisible one.

They look at it that way.

I never understand why. The bond is too dam difficult to break

and so I end up tripping all over self-inflicted pain.

Guess Im someone who takes the longer route to recovery.

Yes it has cost me a lot --- pride and forsaken chances;

but time ultimately gave me a better promise to long-term happiness

than anyone else might have.

I need to love in entirety before Iam ready to try again.


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Letting go of a person don't mean forgetting.

Occasionally I still look at our pictures and remb the best parts of us.

Your smile and everything good about you stays with me.

I hug Lennie to sleep at night and slowly he is my next best comfort,

no longer a heartaching memory.

This entry is here because today was once significant.

Maybe a year later, this very day will pass by quietly.

No matter who or whom is in our current lives

I really hope we both find contentment.

But just today, I promise,
let me write about missing.

Unlike what I expected.. Valentines' special this year.

Spending it with my hot date.

Though I have known him for less than 2 months

he's like no other I ever met.

Willingly dedicating time to me... and mostly weekends.

I find myself increasingly drawn to him.

He is interesting.

Seldom speak about him because I get stressed

having to commit some effort into this relationship.

Its not a fling. I need to be serious, he is.
This has given me a lot to think about
and today we will be working things out hopefully.
I was fricken sleepless last night.
There must be a conclusion after hours of brainstorming.

um to my awesome school. Hahahahahaha.

Submission of report due at 12 tonight.

The heck!?

Okay Iam being lame. But anyway

Spread the love people! (;

Been trying to juggle school and play in my life.

Apparently I reached home at 5am yesterday,

my report (due tomorrow by the way) is 1/3 done

so its not very well-balanced uh? Haha.

Lots to update.

Gotta complete the mad assignment first though.
I tweet more than I blog sheesh, and I said Twitter was dumb.

Forgot to wish myself a Happy Birthday this year.

Will do it in my later posts.

For now Imna leave you with a little boy.

All prepped up and looking fresh....

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my bubblegum Zen. :*D

Im sure he charms the ladies in class with his relatively shy personality

and these eyelashes that are really thick and long woah.

Adorable much!!?

Ok need to hurry eat lunch, get down to work.

Urgg.

 This is me. kthksbye

陈势安 天后
A song that's playing on repeat in my phone.
Repeat, meaning the entire 1.5h journey home.

I think he soaked his voice in heartbreak!
Love ittttt.

Rabbit Angels I was born in your time, please let this year be fluffy fine.

:oD

February is my favorite month.

And will always be even without anything to look forward to.

Cannot type an essay now due to 2:30AM panic-nail painting

(at this moment I jus screwed up again).

I shall adjust my mood, hopefully to save y'all an emotional post.

Haha.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

Enjoy your house visits and KAYPO relatives... once every 365 days.

Let them be. Let them be~

Okay, nails are now dry and looking good.

Have an awesome holiday byeeee!