# 280

Yes Halloween eve for me was spent at home.

Somehow aft visiting Zouk in August,

plus a few weekends of beer and ktv...

October has been relatively home-ish.

Its not entirely good

given the fact that closure was made not long ago.

More alone time to dwell and mess up recovery, tssk.

You know how people tend to create social boundaries?

Like "Oh Im from a girls' school my friends should all be English-speaking."

or "Look at them now. Probably gona be the same 10 years down."
Sure enough I do my fair share of judgement too.

But Im glad I've close friends who are different in many ways;

be it personality, lifestyle, interests, mannerism etc.

There's something to learn from each and every one of them.

A particular trait or strength.

And I think it's really important because

I'll always have genuine company no matter what Im up to.

For instance my clique doesn't sing (much less chinese songs haha)

but then its alright. I have a handful who share my passion for music.

When I feel lazy and just wana chill with good food,

TBG will be the 3 bosom old ladies beside me.

Every single time Im at my worst, mad hysterical,

comfort comes in the form of Ivy my best honey.
If Im missing out on fun joy laughter, a night stroll w Fel sweetheart is cure.

And when I am utterly crushed, in need of a dance/beer

XG bao is SOS in disguise heh.

Of course the above people they are so awesome

their presence in my life far exceeds what I've quoted.

I am defensive of friends I've chosen to keep

(which means talk, hang out, update bla) as on top of anything else,

they are the very ones I view as sincere and trustworthy -

two qualities harder to find than how well a person matches you.

I am not socially adept.

Still for those I've been blessed with, I truly madly deeply

love and appreciate.


Haha sorry. Emotional night.
Happy Halloween dudes!

# 279

Only having them in visual capacity, nil words.
By excluding that part of photo memories

(which is rather inappropriate to blog of now)

I realized I am left with little to update.
 Yea also time to revamp this space.

It is a little too cheery for mood these days.


Anyway I've posted my journey with SMRT Media on fb.

From Jan - Sep 2010, including Taxis.

Not gona repost here since there's not much to write

except for very nice colleagues.

 Wenshi & Jasmine power combo. Favorite girls!!

Their endless sweet gestures;

staying late to acc me when I had to work overtime,

constantly dropping me surprises and cute notes,

duo motivation when I whineee about the hectic scope,

making sure I always have enough water etc....

Thank you thank you. I miss you dearies!

Baoz, Michelle, Jeff, Grace, Lai Yee, Adrian, Choi Wan.

Awesome people whom I really learnt a lot from.
Meaningful perspectives and advices I'll always keep in mind.

During my stint with the company, as with all workplaces

I witnessed how selfish and conceited adults get to be.

Kinda funny.

As kids we were ticked off for not sharing candies with our mates.

But now that we're not so young anymore, it seems less of a fault.

Makes me wonder if this is what growing up forces you to become.

Makes me wonder x2 if these traits are the very ones that bring us success.

Every man for himself. A survival skill.

Well I found some for me to respect and some others I didn't understand.

Dislike is too strong to put across.

In any case I'd hope to mature into the first category. 

Grateful I met a few colleagues that I can call friends. :)

# 278

When it was all fuzzy and nice.

Bursting.

# 277

Just home from lunch @Thomson with the clique.
Had sucky food but it's the company that matters.
TBG TBG TBG!
Overslept and flew out of the house just brushing teeth.

So after several disagreements (and that's to put it lightly)

hahahahhaha we are heading to Phuket coming Jan! ;D

Eggcitement.

Here's a little foresight....
please enlarge for better view

HAHAHAHAHHHAHA!!

With lots of love,

deardear

# 276

Stay-home Sat glued onto Mischievous Kiss

and enjoying Pastamania's prawn aglio delivered...

sidetrack: Favorite Korean boy :*D

heheh not that bad after all!

# 275

Whatever courage/impulse that persisted in me, I gave my all.

You're right. Because I choose to remember the good.

Yes even 40 over 60.

I believe ratio changes for better or worse depending on how much we are willing to risk.

That slight possibility I fought for, definitely worth the pain.
Somewhere down the road I might hear a 'What if'?
At least now I know I couldn't have done more.

Every flicker of bliss with you was priceless.

3.5 years to an end.

Its not about the length of romance really.

If it was 10 years - yet nil trace of love at the last stand,

wonderful memories are pointless as they can never be recreated.

I felt different about us at that very last stand.

Same warm tug in the heart, two better persons.

Still I understand the struggles within.
If this is best for us in your pov lets allow time to heal.

I cannot say thank you enough for the countless sacrifices made.

You were (are) meant to be a high-flyer, achieving great things

and our relationship was the string that kept you grounded.

Hereafter, I genuinely wish you will find happiness in life.

To forge the bonds and pursue what you want.

Thank you for supporting me through bad patches,

making me smile with your silly faces and taking care of my concerns.

Guess deep down we truly appreciate the goodness in each other.

One fact for sure, it isn't easy to meet a boy like you in our present world.
You'll always have an important place as long as Im here.

:o)

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