Friday, May 22

# 232

sometimes people crack jokes that run a lil too far,
i wonder....
do i have to be feisty and on a defensive?
if i merely keep quiet or laugh it off
does it show them i am speechless without a smart retort?

academically i might not be on par
due to what myself ascertain of as low motivation,
(everyone talks about a Degree these days)
but i am definitely not underneath your intelligence.
my big D certificate will come, although later;
meanwhile i am pursuing my passion with great interest
so must it necessarily tally along your life ideals
in order for you all to think in my shoes?
i know when & how to pick up the pace in the near future.

sometimes i sense... from you it hurts more.
silence is an option, silence don't equal ignorance.

Friday, May 15

# 231

hello rashes will you go away.
i have to wear a cap all the time
its shaping my hair permanently. :(

a backdated huge update,
18 April 2009
Singapore Indoor Stadium

Lee Wei Song Si Song Concert

rare opportunity (for me at least) to be part-choir
so overall a fun experience despite the endless waiting.
watching the dry run, then the live show,
we had to continuously rehearse the song to perfection
even if its for just 3 minutes onstage.
it was nice meeting new people,
hanging out with the Artchemist bunch
& taking lots and lots of photos!

we were quite upset though that the stars left early
depriving us of some glam souvenirs.
Veron wanted Jolin
I wanted Daniel Chan
all the other normal girls wanted 小猪 (duh).
HAHAHAHHA.
talking about him, 小猪's fans is damm seow can?
with their stalker maxi cabs, incessant screaming,
a few looked as if they were ready to kill the guards
in order to get pass the yellow barricades.

entry tag.

hee a whole string of visuals to follow.
pardon the smudged make-up or white face,
room's lightings weren't exactly camera friendly.


note: images are click-enabled




Veron.
can you believe she is 25, married & a soon-to-be Mommy!
her complexion is super flawless.
Thanks for your awesome company everytime
during all the Artchemist events and such.
also for the car rides!

Veron, Cariscia, me.
we agreed Cariscia resembles Felicia Chin,
more so in person!


my PV01 class!




Marlene & me.



Raymond the funny guy.



we (Veron & i) were constantly late for practice
and he is the one who'd have to come out to give us the entry tags,
on the second day he was joking like,
"YOU TWO AGAIN??!" hahahahha sorry!

hideous self.

very patient boy Ian.

1

2

3

4..... actually more than 4 Lol.
Allaster - we had to take multiple shots
he admitted his expression is always wrong ley!




Yi Poi the singer.
in awe of his voice the first time i heard at Le Bar
and still am. its damm powerful.
Thanks for being photographer tht night! :)


Isabel. friendly smiley girl! i like.


chief of our school, Alicia



Matilda who's like a big sister.
shame on me
i should have grown out of the 'peace' sign by now,
but she willingly played along haha yay.



solo with Cariscia. oh yesssss
she's a professional makeup artist from X-Zen Bridal.
21-years old, working full time with her passion.
really gifted in it everyone was queuing for her help,
end of the day she didn't have much time for her own.

i've always known nuts about applying makeup
and she was advicing me on all the specific methods,
procedures etc etc which totally sounds like magic..
but today i'm back to my usual anyhow ways. ugh
Thank you for everything sweets!! :)


all in - Artchemist mates.


with our hilarious (Hideaki) & endearing (Liyi) teachers.
i look forward to my singing class every week
even though the travelling distance to Lavender is zz
since they always make it entertaining haha. ;D


okay, thats all for the event.

*sidetrack
i need to hyperwritilate this too;
to be honest i got really excited about the concert
because Daniel Chan 陳曉東 was on the star list.
(there's a phase in my life Pri 3 up till Secondary,
i idolized him (and only him) for say 8 years?)
to me he was damm good-looking, crooned romantic melodies.
i collected every one of his albums, whether in Chi or Canto,
his movies, whether he was male lead or no,
stashed magazines/newspaper cuttings of him in a metal box.
i forced my family to listen to his voice in the car, at home
literally wherever that could have music.... HAHAHA!
i remember they were annoyed.

it was a silly obsession but necessary in my growing up.
one day i finally stopped being psycho.
now that he's 34, i'm suddenly given the chance
to hear his live performance & see him before my eyes,
hahahahha its an overwhelming sense of happiness.
maybe it reminds me of childhood days.
life being fuss-free apart from studies,
times when i indulged in retarded hobbies like this.
i have always been drawn to his singing voice
- in depth yet gentle.
and i wasn't in the least disappointed. :D

some albums i dug out.
hee hee hee i am a satisfied fan from the past.

end of sidetrack*


cabbed to Thomson thereafter.
met Peng baby for yummy dim-sum supper.
cannot recall, think we had a simple night
which ended off with a lovely goodbye. [:






i wish for this feeling to be eternal.





they try to dash my hopes by informing me
that the only constant in life is Change.

Thursday, May 14

# 230


watch in HQ High Quality

In all of drama history,
My Queen's confession is one of a kind.
followers of the show you definitely agree with me!
those who haven't, this episode is still really Sweet (caps S)
and you should go catch ball from the beginning.
i'm not trying to be cheena, its damn nice. :D

Tuesday, May 12

# 229

Realization: Why should I when You are not?

its not fair, is it.
i have to keep seeing these ______
thats far from alright at all. once twice thrice
& humans wonder about the coincidence.
thinking i mattered enough to deserve the same.
today i realize how silly.

Tuesday, May 5

# 228



妥协

你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍
才发现 是你的心太野

你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈

爱到妥协 到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重写
你已下最后通牒
我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想 再为你掉泪
我了解 不会变 不再徘徊
开始自己的明天

never mind what part of the story everyone believes.
one that matters most is no longer mine to hold
and that now, disheartens me more than anything else.
i will keep silent. i will smile always.
i will retain the infinite happiness together.
for sure i know in some ways, to me,
you will forever be irreplaceable.