He's such a gem I hate to lose, yet incapable of holding.
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Life has taken its toll on me.
Life has taken its toll on me.
I wish I could write about happier things but to be honest
such immense discomfort and worrying thoughts are lethal when combined.
And somehow or rather, Im the only one to blame.
Coming clean.
For a good half year I indulged in alcohol every weekend,
a package deal of late nights and crashing after sunrise.
The routine was addictive with awesome friends.
At that point of time, no telltale signs that my body struggled to keep up.
It is true. Tons of people enjoy a havoc lifestyle with no serious consequences.
Hell, I don't even smoke nor drink excessively. So why me?
There's no asking why. Some are blessed, some more unfortunate.
I just happen to be the latter.
It is unimaginably frightening.
Because I can do without a lot of things but no, not my sight.
Even the slightest possibility pulls me into worry-wart mode.
We take for granted. We panic way too late.
Anyway Im alright friends, will definitely keep the faith going.
We take for granted. We panic way too late.
Anyway Im alright friends, will definitely keep the faith going.
Over the past year I've learnt to complain less.
You fuss about a problem and the problem seems to multiply.
Gotten to the point where I might disappear for a bit to compose myself, by myself.
Hahahaha does it make any sense?
Im thankful for every one of your texts, shall say it again--I love yall.
To Bbam especially in spite of my cowardly move
still you're trying your best to be here for me.
From the very start (slurry/nonsensical/always gettin into silly fixes haha)
giving "developed" advice whenever Im a helpless state of mind.
Thank you thank you thank you. :]
And here's what I have to push me the extra mile:
The Devil has put a penalty on all things we enjoy in life.
Either we suffer in health or we suffer in soul, or we get fat.
Albert Einstein
The health of the eye seems to demand a horizon.
You fuss about a problem and the problem seems to multiply.
Gotten to the point where I might disappear for a bit to compose myself, by myself.
Hahahaha does it make any sense?
Im thankful for every one of your texts, shall say it again--I love yall.
To Bbam especially in spite of my cowardly move
still you're trying your best to be here for me.
From the very start (slurry/nonsensical/always gettin into silly fixes haha)
giving "developed" advice whenever Im a helpless state of mind.
Thank you thank you thank you. :]
And here's what I have to push me the extra mile:
The Devil has put a penalty on all things we enjoy in life.
Either we suffer in health or we suffer in soul, or we get fat.
Albert Einstein
The health of the eye seems to demand a horizon.
We are never tired, so long as we can see far enough.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Faith and prayer are the vitamins of the soul;
Man cannot live in health without them.
Mahalia Jackson