Life is good.

School, awesome stayovers and laugh-till-you-drop friends.

Literally. I remb rolling on the floor, clutching my stomach side

and ohhh at one instance.... tearing even. - _-)

 

Must-watch. Not your usual sappy plot,

instead an inventive romedy film that's fricken hilarious

and really speaks of people with different abilities to commit.

If you think about it.... how true.

"There are only two kinds of men in the world.

The ones who cheat and the ones who want to."

 (十个男人九个坏，一个想作怪。)

To this the female lead retorts 那我要找第十一个。

Hahahahhaha!!

Might be a long wait but Mister Eleven exists.

Once you start doubting, you'll never find him.

Someone mentioned above is from the male perspective

but it doesn't make a difference, does it.

How many of you have been through this cycle more than once? 

I have. Exactly why I'd rather be alone now. 

There are no fluctuating or declining stages to fret about.

To me the final outcome of breaking apart acts like gravity.

Eventually, my dear girlfriends and I will overcome that pull with the right one. 

High up we won't ever go back where we started.
Strangers again? Nah.

10,001 things to blog about.

But sho fricken lazy.... how?!???

Went to the gym instead. Finally a productive workout session!

Small girl vigorously pedalling while head-bobbing to rock tunes.

Must have been quite a mad sight ha ha.

Flood of pictures soon.
For now check out Boyce Avenue please. They're awesome acoustic.
How nice it is to have someone special sing for you. Dontya think?
#mysecretfantasy

Made a wrong turn once or twice

Dug my way out blood and fire
Bad decisions that's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated misplaced misunderstood

Mister "no way, it's all good"

It didn't slow me down

Mistaken, always second guessing

Underestimated

Look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like you're less than

Less than perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like you're nothin'

You are perfect to me.

You're so mean

When you talk about yourself

You were wrong

Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead

So complicated

Look how we all make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough

I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

I've seen you do the same

You're perfect, you're perfect to me.

Even the seemingly best disappoints.

Let's just do well ourselves, shall we.

Laura Marling, Brit musician I can really relate to.

That much I cried. You should hit this twice.

One for her spellbinding performance, another for the lyrics.

I know I said I love you, but I'm thinking I was wrong

I'm the first to admit that I'm still pretty young

And I never meant to hurt you when I wrote you ten love songs.

That guy that I could never get, 'cause his girlfriend was pretty fit

And everyone who knew her loved her so

Well I made you leave her for me and now I'm feeling pretty mean

But my mind has fucked me over more times than any man could ever know.

Maybe I should give up, give in.

Give up trying to be thin.

Give up and turn into my mother

God knows I love her.

But I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state

Watch my steady lonesome gait, and be aware

I will never love a man 'cause love and pain go hand in hand

And I can't do it, again.

So we stayed up late one night to try and get our problems right

But I couldn't get into his head just what was going through my mind

Think he knew where I was going 'cause he put Ryan Adams on

I think he thinks it makes me weak but it only ever makes me strong

I've got this friend who sounds just like him

Now he's the man I'd leave you for, the man that I just adore like you.

The same man he turns to me

He said "I got to tell you how I feel, if god could make the perfect girl for me it would be you."

And my god told me not to tell about how much do you love your fella

I don't know more everyday

Not in this new romantic way.

I'll always be your first love

You'll always be my first love.

I will never love a man 'cause I could never hurt a man

Not in this new romantic way.
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I promised noncommitment till this independence is deep-rooted.

And with the past months of dissecting life under a microscope
I have become a (perhaps scarily) self-sufficient person.

It is too true.

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone." Orson Welles

We can and we will still make sacrifices,

as long as we know there is no obligation to receive the same, we are self-sufficient.

I've taken control of my happiness for a while now.

Reset my thoughts instead of faulting the people responsible for my emotions.

Truthfully speaking.... no one is.

Been on the phone a lot with my girls. I used to be in their place.
The calls somehow affirm I am on the right track.

Relationships complement us. Even then, that is the best it gets.

A wise friend said, love loses appeal when love becomes work.
There is absolutely no reason to place expectations on any one person.

Not a partner, not friends, not family. You are your own homeground.

This segmented mindset's my newfound realization.
Being self-sufficient is so important. It frees the unnecessary priorities.

That said! I'll always believe in love and be eager to give,

how shall I say.... I arrived on Earth with such hope. Haha. :b
But I'd keep in mind never to cripple myself without it.

"都这么熟了还要握手"
Hahaha. Yep this is the title post.

I am finally going to write about my birthday.

February it was but looking at the photos makes me feel truly blessed to have them in life.

Close as we are, our clique hardly celebrates birthdays, it will presumably be spent with special ones.

(We all had partners, still do except for me of course!)

ps: jump break enabled for visual-heavy entries.

Last Friday - 38.9.
Today (a week later) - 38.8.
This is not cool. I was looking forward to the weekend.

Now its more brain damage party than paradise. :(


The end of semester calls for a post.
Screwed the finals yest but thats okay, because it was a mass-screwing thing.
Hahahaha. *insert half of middle finger*
What was Fang thinking when she set the dam paper.
Nandos with my class, then Sanctum.
Sure it cannot compare to Avatar but I appreciate the father-son relationship.
And how they didn't let Carl recover like he never just saw his girlfriend (spoiler).
Because thats hardly possible. Physically or mentally.

Timbre @ Old School for celebratory drinks.
Maybe ice-breaking too. ;b
Revealed my tolerance or non, to them. I really need to step up.
Thank you all.

So hurray holidays, hurry away headache.
Sleeping now. 11:19PM.
Pigtures soon.

People who'll listen and share, laugh with me,

sing about life, enjoy hearty meals together;

you who is happiness in the simplest way possible,

Come stand by me.

I am a deep thinker. That I won't deny.

Even so the people I cherish most are ironically the ones who do not evoke my thoughts.

I love the people I don't have to spend time analyzing, scrutinising and then quietly judging.

Tis, triggered by an auto-defense mechanism.

The ones that are easy going, contented,
the non schemers, non bitches and non complicated.

Hardly an intentionally bad thought in mind they make the (my) world such a better place.

The ones I feel safe with.

Because when you finally tire of all the drama
you just want to go home to these gems (extremely rare).

So if you'll listen and share, laugh with me,
sing about life, enjoy hearty meals together;
if you are happiness in the simplest way possible,
Come stand by me.

I've not much to promise you but my true self.
This is my most recent ambition.

I am flying~ happy now, Longnecker extended the submission.
One day but still time. Forgot to upload these previously.

02.02.11 CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE

 Family. Yes I am morphing into Daddypops.

Everyone, you are not allowed to say my Dad is less than handsome.

while doing my report late at night
i suddenly turned to the right

the empty desk beside

our hearty chats and retarded fights

or sometimes, just one time

the figure behind grumbling 'bright lights'

Really miss having you around Sissy.

The room's much too quiet

it feels like Im the last man standing.

Courage. Sometimes I applause myself.
When it comes to matters (literally) of the heart,

I drive straight into the wall. Not without careful thought...

but with no fear of getting spurned after careful thought.

I do what I feel the need to do. And almost always I am glad.

On a side note my room is too gloomy to inspire the hardworking me.

The entire setting with drawn curtains, orange lights

and huge bed right behind the workplace table

just makes me want to carry on sleeping all day long.

Thats exactly what happened today.

But a ha! Just repositioned the laptop, shall work through the night.

By the way BMW has always been my favorite car brand (convertibles o!mg).

Insanely busy with school.
Finals round the corner, two bigass reports due.
Shall squeeze a visual update 'cause photos are piling up.
Do not wince. Yes Im blogging about CNY, now.

Shock, confusion, surprise, frustration, pending irrelevance

all rolled into a night.

But clearly for now there's only one route I should follow.

We don't take angels from the sky.

Started voice-blogging on i3G a while back
and at 0148AM last night/this morning I recorded another.

Maybe one day soon I'll post them up here.

So last night I tossnturn'ed as usual.

It was a random thought that made me ponder;

there are optimistic people around me who seem to embrace happiness.
I used to see it as bullshit - a cliche life-motivational phrase.

But taking time to comprehend the meaning of

Live Every Day Like It's Your Last,

it makes all the sense you couldn't have imagined.

If I were to know life ends tomorrow for me,

wouldn't matter how many faults my mom picked today,

the careless words she said or even the hours she nagged on...

I think I'll be okay.

This mother-daughter bond, however warped it gets, I'd want to cherish.

I think it'd be fine to realize we mightn't ever be together again

because for sure I wouldn't be around anyway

and I'll genuinely want him meeting someone better.

I would pack the day with all things good.
What are wrinkles, some fats, imperfect complexion and height inferiorities

when we're not here to stay. Nothing is here to stay.

No one is forever.

And I guess if only we could see things this way

it just makes living dam much easier.

The friend who isn't quite a good friend on closer inspection,

why does it matter since she still gave comfort, laughter and joy?

People survive (partly die) on expectations.

We become disappointed with a person who has stopped loving us

in the same way we do. Perhaps we haven't. Pain can be alleviated it seems.

People who are happy, or put enough effort trying to be,

they understand what to constantly fight for - today.

They accept that Fate's only promise is in its present.

If he leaves the past behind, then there must be some future worth looking forward.

My mom never faces up to mistakes. Permanent of her at least in this lifetime.
I should probably mend myself to leave a better ink on our relationship.

It's just not right to stand strong for a day and crumble the next.

Happiness ought to be a self-given constant no?

Time to learn how to appreciate, expand what God has blessed me with

because until the day I die this is the shell Iam living in.

Definitely not gonna be a breeze keeping up.

Nevertheless trying is better than not at all.


To my dear friends who are going thru hell,

Live Every Day Like It's Your Last and Some Day You'll Be Right.



Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
Till it's too late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you what would you wish you would've done
Yeah gotta start

Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying

Well if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye?
Should be so careful who we left out of our lives
So when we long for absolution there'll be no one on the line


Soap a few minutes ago (coincidentally):
Things become better when you're happy.
Only then will you be able to attract happy things,
notice happy things, create happy things, share happy things
and gain real happiness.

Common knowledge yet overlooked by most of us.
Shall keep in mind!

Me: .....was such an asshole! *rambling on*

Dad (mega confused face): What's asshole?

10 sec later Dad regains focus: Orrrrrrh, asshole.

Hahahahaha priceless.

"I don't use such language it needs some time to process." 

25hrs out with just 2 hrs shuteye the night before is no joke.

Fell into a deep sleep and for once I had nil dreams.

Yep yesterday was hell productive.

Met Isa for breakfast, rehearsed a little, guided walk (mad relief when over).

I hate me for fearing public speaking so much.

Seems juvenile having anxiety attack when everyone else is chill pill.

Initial plan of rushing home to KO tossed away

because while eating w my classmates, movie sounded good.

Haha. Impromptu bonding. Like!

Time Crisis2 is extinct already sigh.

Some arcade fun before TAB.

Credits to Sneaky Sylvia. ;)

Chillz to acc Xg for some beer but nope no alcohol for me.

It'd have made me cranky way earlier.

Anyway Iam starting to appreciate a sober head.

Overdose of drinks during that rough period and

'hanging over' every other weekend didn't help lessen my pain at all.

Endnote. My father is really very cute.

I am THE WORLD'S BEST SISTER!

Compiled a disc of love-dovey songs handpicked by Sissy for K's birthday
(think If You're Not The One) at the risk of my emonster taking over.

Arranged the tracks in a very professional way hoho,

feels nice knowing the end product'll bring smiles to them.

She's coming to collect it after work. Yippeey.

 

 

Sometime before CNY11.

Had supper w Shi at favorite kwaychup place!

Whole chunk of unglamorous shots for your appreciation.

Neighborhood dates I like teeheheh.

Laura Jenson - Single Girls

They swarm like bees but the pain came slow.... and stinging.

Every photo that should have faded by now,

intactly there, laughing at me with the irony of its non-existence.

Perhaps the past makes way not just for the new,
even the older past. Perhaps people do change.
Know too well I've become the 'voided' one.
In happier times
I remb asking him cheerily if we might fall back to strangers one day,
shouldn't have joked about it. Because one day is here.


And it seemed so impossible then.

Hello world!

Woke up at 0730 this morning.

Walked to my 'lifesaver' vending machine to grab a hot tomato-chicken sandwich.

Had a satisfying breakfast with apple aloe vera juice& watermelon to top it off.

Now Im full. Im heading back to bed.

Hahaha okay, no. Im going to.... study!

Quick update.

03.02.11 CHINESE NEW YEAR 初一

CNY was uneventful this year. As usual.

Big cut in number of relatives we see since the parents split in 05.

Fine I need to get over it it's been 6 years.

Grand Aunt's place, followed by Aunt Karen's for dinner.

Uh huh thats all.

A lot of time spent gorging ourselves on food and basically seated on the couch/es watching tv.

Hands occasionally stretching for red packets.

Overslept; rushed out (hair& face ).

There were just two pictures taken the entire day

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at least I had Sissy and K's company! (:

Oh yep I wanna show yall something

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I've always thought she looked like 小S. Hahahaha.
Now she might kill me for cropping her photo.


Alright, off to meet Brand Equity.

A&P midterm coming Sat urg,
currently hibernating at home with my books.

Posting this during self-bestowed video break.
1 hour vb to every 2 hours of studying.
Plus a lot of TV and food therapy in between.
Im really kind to myself. Hahaha.

DBSK a two-member band today. Still as awesome though.
Said it before I'll say it again
Jung Yunho @0:39 best K dancer.

He's trained in martial arts and it seems to pack the punch into dance.
Mega hot!!


Hahahahaha. Intense.
Not pretty like Kim Hyun Joong
(only Korean star I think gorgeous out of the many gay faces)
but there's something really charismatic about him.
Choreographs the moves, composes music, sings and raps.
Talent talent. Now he's second gorgeous.


Okay I'll quit being awestruck. Doesn't happen often.
Just done with videos so am feeling wow factor. ;D
.. Fck, I drank a mouthful of stale HL milk.
What is this? No odd smell at all!?

Shall go attempt to regurgitate it.
Ohmg.

The 'hot date' in Vday post is obviously my school.
Ohh man why are people calling to ask: WHO?!!?

Hesitated for a long time, wondering if this should be up.

Iam going ahead... for myself.

He probably doesn't follow anyway.

Today struck hard. Not intentionally though.

The number, the month and the mind.

How much I wish I wasn't updating my calendar.
One of those what could have beens.

By the way, this isn't here to say Im still holding on.

Don't mock me please.

But letting go of a person don't mean forgetting.

I cannot look at the date and not feel a tinge of sadness.

I cannot control the sudden trance of auto-rewind.

Most people want a past relationship to become an invisible one.

They look at it that way.

I never understand why. The bond is too dam difficult to break

and so I end up tripping all over self-inflicted pain.

Guess Im someone who takes the longer route to recovery.

Yes it has cost me a lot --- pride and forsaken chances;

but time ultimately gave me a better promise to long-term happiness

than anyone else might have.

I need to love in entirety before Iam ready to try again.


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Letting go of a person don't mean forgetting.

Occasionally I still look at our pictures and remb the best parts of us.

Your smile and everything good about you stays with me.

I hug Lennie to sleep at night and slowly he is my next best comfort,

no longer a heartaching memory.

This entry is here because today was once significant.

Maybe a year later, this very day will pass by quietly.

No matter who or whom is in our current lives

I really hope we both find contentment.

But just today, I promise,
let me write about missing.

Unlike what I expected.. Valentines' special this year.

Spending it with my hot date.

Though I have known him for less than 2 months

he's like no other I ever met.

Willingly dedicating time to me... and mostly weekends.

I find myself increasingly drawn to him.

He is interesting.

Seldom speak about him because I get stressed

having to commit some effort into this relationship.

Its not a fling. I need to be serious, he is.
This has given me a lot to think about
and today we will be working things out hopefully.
I was fricken sleepless last night.
There must be a conclusion after hours of brainstorming.

um to my awesome school. Hahahahahaha.

Submission of report due at 12 tonight.

The heck!?

Okay Iam being lame. But anyway

Spread the love people! (;

Been trying to juggle school and play in my life.

Apparently I reached home at 5am yesterday,

my report (due tomorrow by the way) is 1/3 done

so its not very well-balanced uh? Haha.

Lots to update.

Gotta complete the mad assignment first though.
I tweet more than I blog sheesh, and I said Twitter was dumb.

Forgot to wish myself a Happy Birthday this year.

Will do it in my later posts.

For now Imna leave you with a little boy.

All prepped up and looking fresh....

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my bubblegum Zen. :*D

Im sure he charms the ladies in class with his relatively shy personality

and these eyelashes that are really thick and long woah.

Adorable much!!?

Ok need to hurry eat lunch, get down to work.

Urgg.

 This is me. kthksbye

陈势安 天后
A song that's playing on repeat in my phone.
Repeat, meaning the entire 1.5h journey home.

I think he soaked his voice in heartbreak!
Love ittttt.

Rabbit Angels I was born in your time, please let this year be fluffy fine.

:oD

February is my favorite month.

And will always be even without anything to look forward to.

Cannot type an essay now due to 2:30AM panic-nail painting

(at this moment I jus screwed up again).

I shall adjust my mood, hopefully to save y'all an emotional post.

Haha.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

Enjoy your house visits and KAYPO relatives... once every 365 days.

Let them be. Let them be~

Okay, nails are now dry and looking good.

Have an awesome holiday byeeee!

Tutorial ended at 10. We flew straight to Subway.

Yummy dinner - well I was hungry, anything goes.

Friend: Lets all be frank now.... are you lesbian?

Me: (stops munching) No. Why!!!!!

Friend: Really? Got the vibes.

While we were on the train,

Friend: She look like some character from a cartoon right..

Friend no.2: Oh yaaaah ya

Friend: Don't know the name. A cat, quite vain that one.

??!
Friend no.2: Oh I remb already. Marie the cat.

Me: Lemme google

So today I found out, upon first impression you might think

1. I love girls and I want to hold their hands.

2. I look familiar but you've probably mixed me up with
.
.

her. /it.

Hahahahahahhaha.

Enjoy spending time with my uwa besties though.
They're dam cute. (;


Note to self. Please buck up.

There seems to be a lot of smart people in my class.

Iam not referring to the "academic crazed" sort of smart,

but well-read, witty and clever responses. They know 10001 things!

I couldn't recognize the theme song from Rocky in an ad.

I didn't even know Bob Dylan until two hours ago.

Its ok... because Isa thought he was dead already.
HAHA.

Music: Explosions In The Sky - First Breath After Coma
Map: Darkened room.
Mode: Lying in bed.

Mind: Why is water perceived as blue when the rain outside has no color?

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Mood: Cosy maybe: cloudy

Back from Drey's, all set for 3 fruitful home-days!

Will be headed to gym, reading up on lects and sleeping early.

Bedtime at 4-5am over the weekends boo. Eyebags kill kill kill.

Imna bounce off at 10PM tonight!!

Been googling brands for a sch assignment

and I think Im falling in love with advertising.

Spent the afternoon watching tons of brilliant ads..

the funny, the fail, the famous (Heineken) bla bla.

Interesting.

Will share my favorite by Sapporo Beer Japan:

It's neither hilarious nor loud if you get what I mean

but the beauty of CGI speaks enough to the audience.

I kind of enjoyed the scrolling motion...

almost like various paintings coming to life. Cool.

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Plus Sapporo happens to be my current favorite!

Yeay extremely smooth, easy to drink beer.

Thumbs up (both the ad and product).

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 蜡笔小新 Pops HAHAHA!

Trying hard to imitate.

Dinner at Plaza Sing.
The man we'll always love. (:

 

Sissy stole our small-head genes and left me w Tweetybird's template.
No fair!

On a side note I finally cleared out my room. Hooray.
Amount of dust wiped off that fateful day__ unbelievable.
Masked the sensitive face, still developed a slight rash zz.

But see!? Spick-and-span!! Heheh
Music Corner/Arts, Craft & Languages/Study Desk.
Hmmmm now all my little haven lacks is a dam TELEVISION.
1995 Ch8 dramas showing at 2am, I can fall asleep to those.
Sheeok! Anyone?

TVTVTVTVTVTVTHANKEW.


ps: Iam re-activating my Flickr account soon
so please bear with mini photos recently.

Such a sad touch despite the upbeat melody...
I think everyone goes through a feeling like this
at some point of time in life.
Wistfulness and yearning for past affection.
Iam inclined towards music that makes sense.
This makes sense.
Aren't the lyrics in purple just beautiful?



Why'd I have to go and be a fool again
Why'd I have to go and make a big thing out of nothing
I didn't know what I had till you were gone
It was right in front of me all along
And now those days of "same old story"
Are feeling more like faded glory

Had it all I threw it all aside
Thinking there was more out there I needed to find
I had it all baby
Till you went away
Blue sky, sunshine and butterflies
Those were the conditions that I left behind
Why did I let it go to waste?
I had it all

So where are all the fireworks I thought I'd see
I still haven't found the magic I was lookin' for that made me leave
Oh no, I traded in my comfort zone
For empty nights of bein' alone

Why did I believe that little voice
That led me down the path to this bad choice
Why don't I listen to the angels when they sing
Oh when they sing oh yeah

Had it all I threw it all aside
Thinking there was more out there I needed to find
I had it all baby
Till you went away
Blue sky, sunshine and butterflies
Those were the conditions that I left behind
Why did I let it go to waste?
I had it all

Forgotten Sunday entry. I never published it.

Fool x2.

Updated!

BUSY IN THE BONES.
After hours of hibernation, Im up and all ready
for Thank God It's Sunday! Teehee.
School officially started this week and Im lovin' it.
Thu, Fri, Sat (9-4pm oh man) but the units are interesting.
Contrary to what I thought, the class ratio male > females.
Who said men are not communicators by nature?
Glad to also have Sylvia and Isa as my lovely mates.
Looking forward to spend our two "no life" years together.
Hahahaha! *insert bittersweet face*


Visuals from first 2011 dates w best girlfriends.
Had Sakae and we moved on to HK Cafe for dessert.
Pigs, aging women.... whatever you wanna call us!

 Tasteless udon.

热恋中的情侣__ cheena max, no better phrase to describe.
Because we're counting the 6th year together

yet every date with her is still crazy laughter and mad fun.
It really isn't easy maintaining a 1 on 1 friendship.
People run out of things to say after a while.
Im glad we both make the effort, well anyway we are effortlessly
living by the same frequency... most of the time hahaha.

And so recently we bought each other a token of love,
tad expensive, superbly bling and very grunge.

Pictures don't do our ring justice at all.
Shucks I sound too gay but heck, much 爱 to you honey!

Know you'll be reading this. No need 感动 ah.


Supper with Qing at Kay Poh Road.

Yeay Kpo Rd for real.

Slack. Half of BeeGees. And a shot of our shiny havaianas.

Generous me offered her two toes some color aha.

Spize for yummy nasi goreng and yoghurt @Swirlart.

Tales of the gummy bear.

7++ fricken bugs for yoghurt. Hers was 4 bugs.

Didn't pause to consider I just kept piling heavy fruits into my cup.

Boo Im such a greedy retard. Hopeless when it comes to food.

Fool!!!!!!!
Please kindly remind me to only select 1 grape, 1 kiwi & perhaps 2 strawberries
as toppings in future. Thank you.


Monday tomorrow and Im not feeling blue.
Kz byebye.
OHH p/s PappaRich is here in Singapore!! :O
If I remb correctly, nice experience at Kuala Lumpur's outlet.

Imna step back. Nothing's ever that black and white.

 

We don't take angels from the sky.

I am a believer of horoscopic astrology.

And as an Aquarian, Im not one to make resolutions for the year ahead.

Nor pen out a 2010 entry on whatever that happened in the past year.

As you all might already know,

I lost a very important relationship. Someone once close to the heart.

On the upside I've matured and discovered a stronger side of myself.

Thankful for music, family, awesome friends and good food.

Surely even these couldn't fill the vacant spot he left behind

but at least Im starting to recognize happiness now. (:

The Aquarian

This is a free spirit, typically with unique and fascinating ways of approaching life. While Aquarians do have a goal or direction in mind, they're very experimental and relaxed in finding the best route towards it, often viewing plans and rules as little more than temporary tools to be discarded in time. They aren't inspired by the satisfaction gained from formulating and sticking to rigid means. Many people are caught off guard, thinking the Aquarius is only living in a dream world. Aquarius women are detached from the rest of the world. They are very intuitive and often scary psychic. They are born with the tool to pay attention to fine detail. In love and marriage, Aquarians are idealistic and more vulnerable than people realize. Honesty is very important to them in a relationship. An Aquarian is a truthful person and expects the same in a partner.

The Aquarian male or female is notorious for being mysterious and unpredictable. An Aquarian female is like a butterfly which sits on every flower, but belongs to none. She may talk about fairies one day and discard elves as humbug, the other. Never look down on her or she might never look up to you. She respects you and will expect the same in return. As creative, intelligent and outspoken as the Aquarius personality is, he or she is also the most unemotional and detached of the zodiac signs. Getting inside the mind and dreams of this person is difficult, if not impossible. He or she is protective over the heart and will not trust it with just anyone. This is a person who will go to the ends of the earth to make those around them happy, but will detach in a situation that involves allowing others in.

Creativity is one of the greatest traits of the Aquarius. Individuality comes with the territory of the Aquarius sign and he or she is unlikely to live life according to anyone's books. In most instances, this is an endearing personality trait because the Aquarian is often loved for his or her unique perspective of the world. Artistic careers such as writing, art and music are ideal for this particular zodiac sign.

Browsed through articles, read up on some of my friends' too.

I'd say horoscope is influenced by various factors; upbringing, innate character etc.,

but still amazingly accurate in general.


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Back to school in 2011!
Yipppee yeay!

Received the course acceptance in December.
Especially grateful to Professor Saunders.
I wasn't eligible as my GPA score fell short of the minimum,
apparently other students with same grade didn't make the cut.
Decided to bet on a 10% chance (and sgd70 application fee haa).
Wrote in an appeal. Im glad the effort paid off well.
Quite excited about lessons commencing in a couple of days!
Wish me luck!

2011 has been alright so far.
Watched Black Swan w Jayfloss on New Year's day.
Out in Sg theatres 10 Feb wahlau? Funshion spoils market!
We were arguing non-stop about the genre...
"Dance!" "No? Thriller! Psycho thriller." "Dance show la!!"
Wtheck haha. Two suppers, bowling for kicks w Ruby & Kai too.
Must say (humbly) that I've improved a lil from the last time. ;n)

Okay crap 8:50PM, gonna grab dinner from vending machine-sandwich,
seat myself in front of tv for another episode of Breakout.
I don't usually catch Ch 8 dramas religiously. This is an exception man!
戴阳天's merciless as hell yet dam vulnerable when it comes to the girl he loves.
Aw maybe Im inclined towards people with inner struggles haha. Sweet!


Anyway yep I took away the tagboard because I want my blog
as simple as possible in every way.
Basically a venue to create memories and recollect them - Period.
It's redundant in the sense that there are other means for interaction,
and I wish to keep this space solely for my personal thoughts.

So locate me at either http://www.facebook.com/auhclorac
OR http://twitter.com/auhclorac instead.
Gnight for now! Picture updates soon!

# 300

And Im here again to say

HAPPY NEW YEAR '11!!
Enjoy the countdown tonight 00:00!

 Dedication esp to my friends

>> Three Days Grace - The Good Life

Hardcore but I'd imagine its awesome music to celebrate on booze.



The good life is what I need

Too many people stepping over me
The only thing that's been on my mind
The one thing I need before I die

All I want
Is a little of the good life
All I need
Is to have a good time
The good life
All I want
Is a little of the good life
All I need
Is to have a good time
The good life

I don't really know who I am
It's time for me to take a stand
I need a change and I need it fast
I know that any day could be the last


Yep how true.
Guess all we need is a little of the good life.
With 2011 right ahead I wish you (yes reader) abundant happiness,
a fresh beginning and golden opportunities in the new year. (;

Let's fight for more than a little of the good life shall we.
Have fun!

# 299

I wake up early these days because breakfast is enticing.

Marks & Spencer strawberry-coated flakes super yum!!

Well hope y'all had a merry season teeheh.

Glad to say mine turned out better than expected.

24.12.10 EVE

East Coast; Barbecue session with Jayfloss, Ruby & click.,

oh and and 3 great girls Magdalene, Shernice, Eileen.

Bunch of awesome people! Life tracks back sometimes.

2006 was the year I last celebrated Cmas w Jay at the same place,

on the same day, doing the very same things.

Tent-pitching/free flow food/alcohol/crazy games till dawn.

Didn't wanna be humanburger in town

or end up in pub-filled with youngsters spraying snow.

Needed a relax Christmas. 5566 seaview haha!

Here's visuals from the night. Credits to Benj.

Too chill that I only took four pictures of Mag and I.

Benj.

Eileen who drank for 2, Shernice shared gossip haha, Mag wears bluff shoes,

Carol um... slouches in photos.

Chatted w Mag mostly she's really nice.

Ohhh ya the pit was a 20min walk to Mcdonalds (restrooms).

So engrossed in conversation that we happily strolled past our friends while returning,

still oblivious, we carried on until arriving at far end of the park,

saw the staircase tower and finally realized something was wrong AHA.

Apparently they saw us miss the pit and called out but neither of us responded.

Dam retarded know!!

I said "Funny face!!" Cute right Mag.

 Mac, macmac, macmacmac, macmac, macmac, macmacmacmac.. DRRINK!!

I think Jay the Thaiboy came up with it. Haha. :B

Never play frog game when everyone's high. Total fail.

25.12.10 CHRISTMAS

Slept at 10am on the day itself.

Met up with neighbor for supper at Heartland Mall's HK Cafe.

Felt ultra bad I didn't prepare anything but M&S liquor-filled chocs

only to find out he don't fancy chocolates. Walau fussy!

Hahahaha. Supposed to accompany him have his meal,

in the end he ordered dim sum and I ate most of it. :n\

Handmade XL stocking, coolmax.

Thank you Berd.

And the worst part, after work on Cmas he drove around,

first to pick up Elyn then Gardens to check out pubs...

waiting for us to decide on our plans. Before bringing us to my house

where I spent the night drinking away with Bao downstairs.

(whole bot of vodka given by him as well) Oh man.

All these despite seeming quite tired.

Thank you again neighbor! :D

He probably won't read this though.

26.12.10 POST-CHRISTMAS

Pops' place in the evening.

Dearest AD surprised us w headphones!!

Hurray. Planning to catchup on Vampire Diaries soon,

will come in handy.
And now I can blast the volume when learning songs!
I love almost-family days.
Just gathered in front of the tv, growing fat from snacks,
listening to Daddy go on and on about life lessons. :o)

I actually watched Hello Stranger again w Sissy and Kaori.
Hahaha whatever funny still made me laugh a second time.
Yea thats how much I enjoyed the movie. Romantic-ca!


Probably be home on New Year's eve. Ok, today.

Hopefully this can work magic and heal me in time for 1 Jan!

Yellow balls.

Yikes 1:22AM I am way past my goaltime.

Goodnight folks!