Laura Jenson - Single Girls

They swarm like bees but the pain came slow.... and stinging.

Every photo that should have faded by now,

intactly there, laughing at me with the irony of its non-existence.

Perhaps the past makes way not just for the new,
even the older past. Perhaps people do change.
Know too well I've become the 'voided' one.
In happier times
I remb asking him cheerily if we might fall back to strangers one day,
shouldn't have joked about it. Because one day is here.


And it seemed so impossible then.

Hello world!

Woke up at 0730 this morning.

Walked to my 'lifesaver' vending machine to grab a hot tomato-chicken sandwich.

Had a satisfying breakfast with apple aloe vera juice& watermelon to top it off.

Now Im full. Im heading back to bed.

Hahaha okay, no. Im going to.... study!

Quick update.

03.02.11 CHINESE NEW YEAR 初一

CNY was uneventful this year. As usual.

Big cut in number of relatives we see since the parents split in 05.

Fine I need to get over it it's been 6 years.

Grand Aunt's place, followed by Aunt Karen's for dinner.

Uh huh thats all.

A lot of time spent gorging ourselves on food and basically seated on the couch/es watching tv.

Hands occasionally stretching for red packets.

Overslept; rushed out (hair& face ).

There were just two pictures taken the entire day

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at least I had Sissy and K's company! (:

Oh yep I wanna show yall something

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I've always thought she looked like 小S. Hahahaha.
Now she might kill me for cropping her photo.


Alright, off to meet Brand Equity.

A&P midterm coming Sat urg,
currently hibernating at home with my books.

Posting this during self-bestowed video break.
1 hour vb to every 2 hours of studying.
Plus a lot of TV and food therapy in between.
Im really kind to myself. Hahaha.

DBSK a two-member band today. Still as awesome though.
Said it before I'll say it again
Jung Yunho @0:39 best K dancer.

He's trained in martial arts and it seems to pack the punch into dance.
Mega hot!!


Hahahahaha. Intense.
Not pretty like Kim Hyun Joong
(only Korean star I think gorgeous out of the many gay faces)
but there's something really charismatic about him.
Choreographs the moves, composes music, sings and raps.
Talent talent. Now he's second gorgeous.


Okay I'll quit being awestruck. Doesn't happen often.
Just done with videos so am feeling wow factor. ;D
.. Fck, I drank a mouthful of stale HL milk.
What is this? No odd smell at all!?

Shall go attempt to regurgitate it.
Ohmg.

The 'hot date' in Vday post is obviously my school.
Ohh man why are people calling to ask: WHO?!!?

Hesitated for a long time, wondering if this should be up.

Iam going ahead... for myself.

He probably doesn't follow anyway.

Today struck hard. Not intentionally though.

The number, the month and the mind.

How much I wish I wasn't updating my calendar.
One of those what could have beens.

By the way, this isn't here to say Im still holding on.

Don't mock me please.

But letting go of a person don't mean forgetting.

I cannot look at the date and not feel a tinge of sadness.

I cannot control the sudden trance of auto-rewind.

Most people want a past relationship to become an invisible one.

They look at it that way.

I never understand why. The bond is too dam difficult to break

and so I end up tripping all over self-inflicted pain.

Guess Im someone who takes the longer route to recovery.

Yes it has cost me a lot --- pride and forsaken chances;

but time ultimately gave me a better promise to long-term happiness

than anyone else might have.

I need to love in entirety before Iam ready to try again.


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Letting go of a person don't mean forgetting.

Occasionally I still look at our pictures and remb the best parts of us.

Your smile and everything good about you stays with me.

I hug Lennie to sleep at night and slowly he is my next best comfort,

no longer a heartaching memory.

This entry is here because today was once significant.

Maybe a year later, this very day will pass by quietly.

No matter who or whom is in our current lives

I really hope we both find contentment.

But just today, I promise,
let me write about missing.

Unlike what I expected.. Valentines' special this year.

Spending it with my hot date.

Though I have known him for less than 2 months

he's like no other I ever met.

Willingly dedicating time to me... and mostly weekends.

I find myself increasingly drawn to him.

He is interesting.

Seldom speak about him because I get stressed

having to commit some effort into this relationship.

Its not a fling. I need to be serious, he is.
This has given me a lot to think about
and today we will be working things out hopefully.
I was fricken sleepless last night.
There must be a conclusion after hours of brainstorming.

um to my awesome school. Hahahahahaha.

Submission of report due at 12 tonight.

The heck!?

Okay Iam being lame. But anyway

Spread the love people! (;

Been trying to juggle school and play in my life.

Apparently I reached home at 5am yesterday,

my report (due tomorrow by the way) is 1/3 done

so its not very well-balanced uh? Haha.

Lots to update.

Gotta complete the mad assignment first though.
I tweet more than I blog sheesh, and I said Twitter was dumb.

Forgot to wish myself a Happy Birthday this year.

Will do it in my later posts.

For now Imna leave you with a little boy.

All prepped up and looking fresh....

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my bubblegum Zen. :*D

Im sure he charms the ladies in class with his relatively shy personality

and these eyelashes that are really thick and long woah.

Adorable much!!?

Ok need to hurry eat lunch, get down to work.

Urgg.

 This is me. kthksbye

陈势安 天后
A song that's playing on repeat in my phone.
Repeat, meaning the entire 1.5h journey home.

I think he soaked his voice in heartbreak!
Love ittttt.

Rabbit Angels I was born in your time, please let this year be fluffy fine.

:oD

February is my favorite month.

And will always be even without anything to look forward to.

Cannot type an essay now due to 2:30AM panic-nail painting

(at this moment I jus screwed up again).

I shall adjust my mood, hopefully to save y'all an emotional post.

Haha.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

Enjoy your house visits and KAYPO relatives... once every 365 days.

Let them be. Let them be~

Okay, nails are now dry and looking good.

Have an awesome holiday byeeee!

Tutorial ended at 10. We flew straight to Subway.

Yummy dinner - well I was hungry, anything goes.

Friend: Lets all be frank now.... are you lesbian?

Me: (stops munching) No. Why!!!!!

Friend: Really? Got the vibes.

While we were on the train,

Friend: She look like some character from a cartoon right..

Friend no.2: Oh yaaaah ya

Friend: Don't know the name. A cat, quite vain that one.

??!
Friend no.2: Oh I remb already. Marie the cat.

Me: Lemme google

So today I found out, upon first impression you might think

1. I love girls and I want to hold their hands.

2. I look familiar but you've probably mixed me up with
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her. /it.

Hahahahahahhaha.

Enjoy spending time with my uwa besties though.
They're dam cute. (;


Note to self. Please buck up.

There seems to be a lot of smart people in my class.

Iam not referring to the "academic crazed" sort of smart,

but well-read, witty and clever responses. They know 10001 things!

I couldn't recognize the theme song from Rocky in an ad.

I didn't even know Bob Dylan until two hours ago.

Its ok... because Isa thought he was dead already.
HAHA.

Music: Explosions In The Sky - First Breath After Coma
Map: Darkened room.
Mode: Lying in bed.

Mind: Why is water perceived as blue when the rain outside has no color?

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Mood: Cosy maybe: cloudy

Back from Drey's, all set for 3 fruitful home-days!

Will be headed to gym, reading up on lects and sleeping early.

Bedtime at 4-5am over the weekends boo. Eyebags kill kill kill.

Imna bounce off at 10PM tonight!!

Been googling brands for a sch assignment

and I think Im falling in love with advertising.

Spent the afternoon watching tons of brilliant ads..

the funny, the fail, the famous (Heineken) bla bla.

Interesting.

Will share my favorite by Sapporo Beer Japan:

It's neither hilarious nor loud if you get what I mean

but the beauty of CGI speaks enough to the audience.

I kind of enjoyed the scrolling motion...

almost like various paintings coming to life. Cool.

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Plus Sapporo happens to be my current favorite!

Yeay extremely smooth, easy to drink beer.

Thumbs up (both the ad and product).

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 蜡笔小新 Pops HAHAHA!

Trying hard to imitate.

Dinner at Plaza Sing.
The man we'll always love. (:

 

Sissy stole our small-head genes and left me w Tweetybird's template.
No fair!

On a side note I finally cleared out my room. Hooray.
Amount of dust wiped off that fateful day__ unbelievable.
Masked the sensitive face, still developed a slight rash zz.

But see!? Spick-and-span!! Heheh
Music Corner/Arts, Craft & Languages/Study Desk.
Hmmmm now all my little haven lacks is a dam TELEVISION.
1995 Ch8 dramas showing at 2am, I can fall asleep to those.
Sheeok! Anyone?

TVTVTVTVTVTVTHANKEW.


ps: Iam re-activating my Flickr account soon
so please bear with mini photos recently.

Such a sad touch despite the upbeat melody...
I think everyone goes through a feeling like this
at some point of time in life.
Wistfulness and yearning for past affection.
Iam inclined towards music that makes sense.
This makes sense.
Aren't the lyrics in purple just beautiful?



Why'd I have to go and be a fool again
Why'd I have to go and make a big thing out of nothing
I didn't know what I had till you were gone
It was right in front of me all along
And now those days of "same old story"
Are feeling more like faded glory

Had it all I threw it all aside
Thinking there was more out there I needed to find
I had it all baby
Till you went away
Blue sky, sunshine and butterflies
Those were the conditions that I left behind
Why did I let it go to waste?
I had it all

So where are all the fireworks I thought I'd see
I still haven't found the magic I was lookin' for that made me leave
Oh no, I traded in my comfort zone
For empty nights of bein' alone

Why did I believe that little voice
That led me down the path to this bad choice
Why don't I listen to the angels when they sing
Oh when they sing oh yeah

Had it all I threw it all aside
Thinking there was more out there I needed to find
I had it all baby
Till you went away
Blue sky, sunshine and butterflies
Those were the conditions that I left behind
Why did I let it go to waste?
I had it all

Forgotten Sunday entry. I never published it.

Fool x2.

Updated!

BUSY IN THE BONES.
After hours of hibernation, Im up and all ready
for Thank God It's Sunday! Teehee.
School officially started this week and Im lovin' it.
Thu, Fri, Sat (9-4pm oh man) but the units are interesting.
Contrary to what I thought, the class ratio male > females.
Who said men are not communicators by nature?
Glad to also have Sylvia and Isa as my lovely mates.
Looking forward to spend our two "no life" years together.
Hahahaha! *insert bittersweet face*


Visuals from first 2011 dates w best girlfriends.
Had Sakae and we moved on to HK Cafe for dessert.
Pigs, aging women.... whatever you wanna call us!

 Tasteless udon.

热恋中的情侣__ cheena max, no better phrase to describe.
Because we're counting the 6th year together

yet every date with her is still crazy laughter and mad fun.
It really isn't easy maintaining a 1 on 1 friendship.
People run out of things to say after a while.
Im glad we both make the effort, well anyway we are effortlessly
living by the same frequency... most of the time hahaha.

And so recently we bought each other a token of love,
tad expensive, superbly bling and very grunge.

Pictures don't do our ring justice at all.
Shucks I sound too gay but heck, much 爱 to you honey!

Know you'll be reading this. No need 感动 ah.


Supper with Qing at Kay Poh Road.

Yeay Kpo Rd for real.

Slack. Half of BeeGees. And a shot of our shiny havaianas.

Generous me offered her two toes some color aha.

Spize for yummy nasi goreng and yoghurt @Swirlart.

Tales of the gummy bear.

7++ fricken bugs for yoghurt. Hers was 4 bugs.

Didn't pause to consider I just kept piling heavy fruits into my cup.

Boo Im such a greedy retard. Hopeless when it comes to food.

Fool!!!!!!!
Please kindly remind me to only select 1 grape, 1 kiwi & perhaps 2 strawberries
as toppings in future. Thank you.


Monday tomorrow and Im not feeling blue.
Kz byebye.
OHH p/s PappaRich is here in Singapore!! :O
If I remb correctly, nice experience at Kuala Lumpur's outlet.

Imna step back. Nothing's ever that black and white.

 

We don't take angels from the sky.

I am a believer of horoscopic astrology.

And as an Aquarian, Im not one to make resolutions for the year ahead.

Nor pen out a 2010 entry on whatever that happened in the past year.

As you all might already know,

I lost a very important relationship. Someone once close to the heart.

On the upside I've matured and discovered a stronger side of myself.

Thankful for music, family, awesome friends and good food.

Surely even these couldn't fill the vacant spot he left behind

but at least Im starting to recognize happiness now. (:

The Aquarian

This is a free spirit, typically with unique and fascinating ways of approaching life. While Aquarians do have a goal or direction in mind, they're very experimental and relaxed in finding the best route towards it, often viewing plans and rules as little more than temporary tools to be discarded in time. They aren't inspired by the satisfaction gained from formulating and sticking to rigid means. Many people are caught off guard, thinking the Aquarius is only living in a dream world. Aquarius women are detached from the rest of the world. They are very intuitive and often scary psychic. They are born with the tool to pay attention to fine detail. In love and marriage, Aquarians are idealistic and more vulnerable than people realize. Honesty is very important to them in a relationship. An Aquarian is a truthful person and expects the same in a partner.

The Aquarian male or female is notorious for being mysterious and unpredictable. An Aquarian female is like a butterfly which sits on every flower, but belongs to none. She may talk about fairies one day and discard elves as humbug, the other. Never look down on her or she might never look up to you. She respects you and will expect the same in return. As creative, intelligent and outspoken as the Aquarius personality is, he or she is also the most unemotional and detached of the zodiac signs. Getting inside the mind and dreams of this person is difficult, if not impossible. He or she is protective over the heart and will not trust it with just anyone. This is a person who will go to the ends of the earth to make those around them happy, but will detach in a situation that involves allowing others in.

Creativity is one of the greatest traits of the Aquarius. Individuality comes with the territory of the Aquarius sign and he or she is unlikely to live life according to anyone's books. In most instances, this is an endearing personality trait because the Aquarian is often loved for his or her unique perspective of the world. Artistic careers such as writing, art and music are ideal for this particular zodiac sign.

Browsed through articles, read up on some of my friends' too.

I'd say horoscope is influenced by various factors; upbringing, innate character etc.,

but still amazingly accurate in general.


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Back to school in 2011!
Yipppee yeay!

Received the course acceptance in December.
Especially grateful to Professor Saunders.
I wasn't eligible as my GPA score fell short of the minimum,
apparently other students with same grade didn't make the cut.
Decided to bet on a 10% chance (and sgd70 application fee haa).
Wrote in an appeal. Im glad the effort paid off well.
Quite excited about lessons commencing in a couple of days!
Wish me luck!

2011 has been alright so far.
Watched Black Swan w Jayfloss on New Year's day.
Out in Sg theatres 10 Feb wahlau? Funshion spoils market!
We were arguing non-stop about the genre...
"Dance!" "No? Thriller! Psycho thriller." "Dance show la!!"
Wtheck haha. Two suppers, bowling for kicks w Ruby & Kai too.
Must say (humbly) that I've improved a lil from the last time. ;n)

Okay crap 8:50PM, gonna grab dinner from vending machine-sandwich,
seat myself in front of tv for another episode of Breakout.
I don't usually catch Ch 8 dramas religiously. This is an exception man!
戴阳天's merciless as hell yet dam vulnerable when it comes to the girl he loves.
Aw maybe Im inclined towards people with inner struggles haha. Sweet!


Anyway yep I took away the tagboard because I want my blog
as simple as possible in every way.
Basically a venue to create memories and recollect them - Period.
It's redundant in the sense that there are other means for interaction,
and I wish to keep this space solely for my personal thoughts.

So locate me at either http://www.facebook.com/auhclorac
OR http://twitter.com/auhclorac instead.
Gnight for now! Picture updates soon!

# 300

And Im here again to say

HAPPY NEW YEAR '11!!
Enjoy the countdown tonight 00:00!

 Dedication esp to my friends

>> Three Days Grace - The Good Life

Hardcore but I'd imagine its awesome music to celebrate on booze.



The good life is what I need

Too many people stepping over me
The only thing that's been on my mind
The one thing I need before I die

All I want
Is a little of the good life
All I need
Is to have a good time
The good life
All I want
Is a little of the good life
All I need
Is to have a good time
The good life

I don't really know who I am
It's time for me to take a stand
I need a change and I need it fast
I know that any day could be the last


Yep how true.
Guess all we need is a little of the good life.
With 2011 right ahead I wish you (yes reader) abundant happiness,
a fresh beginning and golden opportunities in the new year. (;

Let's fight for more than a little of the good life shall we.
Have fun!

# 299

I wake up early these days because breakfast is enticing.

Marks & Spencer strawberry-coated flakes super yum!!

Well hope y'all had a merry season teeheh.

Glad to say mine turned out better than expected.

24.12.10 EVE

East Coast; Barbecue session with Jayfloss, Ruby & click.,

oh and and 3 great girls Magdalene, Shernice, Eileen.

Bunch of awesome people! Life tracks back sometimes.

2006 was the year I last celebrated Cmas w Jay at the same place,

on the same day, doing the very same things.

Tent-pitching/free flow food/alcohol/crazy games till dawn.

Didn't wanna be humanburger in town

or end up in pub-filled with youngsters spraying snow.

Needed a relax Christmas. 5566 seaview haha!

Here's visuals from the night. Credits to Benj.

Too chill that I only took four pictures of Mag and I.

Benj.

Eileen who drank for 2, Shernice shared gossip haha, Mag wears bluff shoes,

Carol um... slouches in photos.

Chatted w Mag mostly she's really nice.

Ohhh ya the pit was a 20min walk to Mcdonalds (restrooms).

So engrossed in conversation that we happily strolled past our friends while returning,

still oblivious, we carried on until arriving at far end of the park,

saw the staircase tower and finally realized something was wrong AHA.

Apparently they saw us miss the pit and called out but neither of us responded.

Dam retarded know!!

I said "Funny face!!" Cute right Mag.

 Mac, macmac, macmacmac, macmac, macmac, macmacmacmac.. DRRINK!!

I think Jay the Thaiboy came up with it. Haha. :B

Never play frog game when everyone's high. Total fail.

25.12.10 CHRISTMAS

Slept at 10am on the day itself.

Met up with neighbor for supper at Heartland Mall's HK Cafe.

Felt ultra bad I didn't prepare anything but M&S liquor-filled chocs

only to find out he don't fancy chocolates. Walau fussy!

Hahahaha. Supposed to accompany him have his meal,

in the end he ordered dim sum and I ate most of it. :n\

Handmade XL stocking, coolmax.

Thank you Berd.

And the worst part, after work on Cmas he drove around,

first to pick up Elyn then Gardens to check out pubs...

waiting for us to decide on our plans. Before bringing us to my house

where I spent the night drinking away with Bao downstairs.

(whole bot of vodka given by him as well) Oh man.

All these despite seeming quite tired.

Thank you again neighbor! :D

He probably won't read this though.

26.12.10 POST-CHRISTMAS

Pops' place in the evening.

Dearest AD surprised us w headphones!!

Hurray. Planning to catchup on Vampire Diaries soon,

will come in handy.
And now I can blast the volume when learning songs!
I love almost-family days.
Just gathered in front of the tv, growing fat from snacks,
listening to Daddy go on and on about life lessons. :o)

I actually watched Hello Stranger again w Sissy and Kaori.
Hahaha whatever funny still made me laugh a second time.
Yea thats how much I enjoyed the movie. Romantic-ca!


Probably be home on New Year's eve. Ok, today.

Hopefully this can work magic and heal me in time for 1 Jan!

Yellow balls.

Yikes 1:22AM I am way past my goaltime.

Goodnight folks!