We either want it, or we don't want it. There is no in-between.

To each her own although I cannot understand the things people suggest.

 

"See now you're left with nothing!!"

 

The 'something' here according to them, refers to the attention given by potential suitors. I must admit this much: Indeed it is a nice feeling to be chased. To be showered with gifts from time to time, to receive them as surprises, to have your wants and opinions prioritized by someone. It is a privilege to be treated exceptionally well and being aware of that brings about a nice feeling. But it stops there -- it stops at nice.

 

This is not that warm fuzzy feeling you'll want to keep for long. This is not from the person who makes you feel different. This is not 'something' we should allow to go on just so that we may continue to bask in all of their attention... because then it would be a scam. Not just to the party giving with no obvious return, but also a scam to ourselves.

 

There is absolutely no reason to feel bitter or jealous when this person eventually moves on from us. In all honesty I know I will be genuinely happy for him. We did not or could not accept, not at that point in time, not now. We make our own decisions and we must let others make their fair choices. Yet keeping this 'unwanted' attention is somehow of significance to a lot of women these days. I don't know. Is there some psychological explanation? Maybe it is the subconscious need to verify one's self-worth with attention given by the opposite sex? I will never be able to understand. I am insecure in some ways (hahahaha shit so honest for what) but am I glad I never valued myself based on how many men I could string into texting me at once. It is quite a dreadful form of narcissism, in my opinion. It is more important to make ourselves clear. We can still try to become a good friend to people whom matter. If it works out platonically that would be the best outcome. And if it doesn't, well at least we tried.

It takes time. After some time we know. We will either want it and chase/wait for it. Or we don't want it and let it go. That's all. This is not a football game. There is no reserve.

 

 

Home Alone Night #2 GOODNIGHT.

 √  Quality time with her.

 

♫♪

As sure as the stones that slow your feet down

As sure as the circles turning you round

Always the peace that never got found

Any second now

 

All of the time you thought you got close

How hard it is to love those old ghosts

You get the least but you give up the most

Any second now

 

Nearly morning :)

Should I be anticipating or dreading 3rd December?

It is easier to build strong children than to repair broken men.

 

Found

OVER, AND DONE WITH.

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2010 with Grandma =)

 

Every time I catch sight of beloved Grand-Aunt's photo by my desk I am reminded how unpredictable life can be.

To never assume that time stretches for anyone of us, till we get down to doing certain things. Time doesn't.

Note to self: Visit Grandma with Punkie soon.

by Grace Dorman

I couldn't have felt more touched this morning, eh 感动啦 ! In spite of the situations that caused me to derail from work for a crucial 3 months, they softly let me be. Opportunity, 1-1 coachings, motivation what not. I had them all. And this morning............... :) Truly grateful. I'm glad I did not choose to disappoint.

It was silly, to let my mind be preoccupied by things and people I cannot change.

Mondays are blue but new.

 

We keep waiting for that perfect moment while all the right ones pass us by.

 

 

Okay okay. Less emotions, let's forward to practical talk.

 

Sunday's appointment

I will not deny the temptation of a solid $3,000 added into my bank account every month.

The temptation of no longer having to Google Map on public transport day after day.

It is now that I realize how BIG our 'tiny' red dot actually is.

I will not deny how tempting it is: the idea of retreating back into my comfort zone.

No rejection slip. No last-minute cancellations of scheduled meetings. No need to sell my time freely.

How nice to sit and rock in an office chair, finish up repetitive tasks and go to bed without worries. Right?

 

But....

 

There are too many people I cannot afford to let down. My director, mentors and colleagues who helped me thus far.

The friends who trusted me unconditionally and bought their policies from a newbie like me.

They never questioned/doubted how long I'd stay here. They simply trusted me as an individual.

Daddypops who disagreed till the end of the world but ultimately said 'okay go break-a-bone' haha.

Punkie who pushes me to pursue not just what's good, but what challenges me to be my best.

Even these awesome clients that have given me (a complete stranger) a chance to prove myself.

My closest friends who always lend support during bad unfulfilling days at work.
 

It's too early in the game to quit. I know they will love me whatever my choice.

But I guess I shall pass up the safer opportunity this time. Continue on my little BIG venture, adventure.
Yay for Carol !!!!!!! ;•D

Today, I missed another opportunity to catch Insidious: Chapter 2.

I decided to back out again. I don't know what is wrong with me.

It's just a movie and there's no need to be unnecessarily selective of the company.

Somehow though... I cringe at the thought of one-on-one 'dates' now.

I hate the idea of having to watch my manners like crunching on popcorn softly
(not because I want to impress the other party but rather a form of courtesy).

My job requires me to meet strangers on an almost daily basis. I have to think on my feet, strike up conversations.

So where's the big deal in accepting an invitation from a friend right?

Well if it's one friend you haven't met in a long while, an ex-colleague or an acquaintance,
some conscious effort must be made to fill the silence. And I would do so in order to earn a decent paycheck.

But when it cuts into my personal time and space, then surely nope.

I want to watch movies with people I like and whom I feel entirely comfortable with.

Is this a newly-developed OCD of mine? Haha.

I never did the 'dating' thing. There is no in-between for me.

But at the very least I bothered to hangout with random friends.
Am I transforming into a hermit crab with age? Shiit.

 

At the moment if I'm out with the opposite sex (alone) you can probably be sure we're best of buddies.

Either that or someone I superbly like. Enough to risk an awkward experience.

Or..... MY CLIENT. HAHAHAHA.

'Without sounding pessimistic, I learned that I do not believe in marriage.

I believe in a commitment you make in your heart.
There's no paper that will make you stay.

People should get married at the end of the road, not the beginning.'

—Diane Kruger

Somewhat true.

FIRST ELEPHANT SHOW☺

BAHAHHAHAHA isn't Punkie cute?!!
As you can tell she couldn't understand my excitement over 大象小象，but accompanied me all the same.

Star Cruiseeeeeeeee = eat and play and eat somemore. My kinda thing.

I must go back to Twitter.
I tend to take advantage of this endless space to unleash my depressive states.

(Okay nope depressive is too strong a word.)

Was scrolling through my rusty Twitter page yesterday.

I really like how all the emotions are either bite-sizes or hidden in some subtle quotes. 

Over here hmmmm, the posts are 'maniac' in the sense that it is like... vomit from the heart.

Hahahaha. I am looking forward to a happier me soon.

I see a worn-out stranger in the mirror now and I want to be beautiful again.
 

But I wrote about you from the start, so I will keep writing about you till the end.

On a totally random note guess who's second in line.......

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

after Fiji? Heeeheehe
 

VITTEL !

Happy Birthday to my Daddypops. I love him a lot.  :•)
He deserves everything in his life now. The freedom, the joys, the comfort and of course the bliss.

As always I wish for him the most important of all - great health. 

I wish myself a mighty amount of perseverance too, so that I may never let him down.

Basically he just wants to see me happy and financially independent.
Pictures soon.

:)

 

《　好心好报　》
 

THINGS

I will no longer wait for a special person to do these things with me.

There are reasons why people don't step into our world to understand the things we love.

It could be plain disinterest or perhaps the waste of time.

I for one, quite enjoy watching him engrossed in the things he love.

It could be a particular hobby, some stubborn mindset. An animal. It could be his career.

The way he takes pride in these things and even that arrogance as he finally does well in it. :>

There's just something remotely interesting.

I've always liked the idea -- the ideal of that special person fulfilling 'my' things with me.

Simply because it will be fun. There will be laughter.

I wanted someone who would sing and listen to me sing (the more off-key the better),

someone who falls while trying to skate, someone for me to chase after on a bicycle,
someone who lets me draw him a thousand things, someone to experience thrilling stuffs together,

someone to get terrified with at the movies, someone who would stay close to me as I dance at the club,

someone who laughs at my red face after a glass of beer and gets drunk ultimately,

someone I'm able to share both heavy and light-hearted conversations with.

Someone who allows me to cheat at my ego-game of basketball.

Someone who may one day bring me to the little white whale because I think it is cuter than ugly.

For all these little favorites of mine, I was willing to be that person's company for 'his' list of things.

I have never been anxious to find this Someone.

Yet as I am typing now... it becomes clear why I had always wanted him around.

 

But after all this time, it appears the special someone doesn't exist, after all.

These things can be done very well alone.
I will no longer wait for this person to join me.

I am starting to like my job. The sense of purpose in what I'm doing is slowly getting to me.

It is very welcome at a time like this.

I hope to tire myself till the point where physical fatigue overwhelms all else.

My director and mentors are great people.

I've good friends in the industry whom motivate me by working together (though we belong to different companies).

Just before my dear Natty left for UK... she texted me this advice: 老娘跟你拼了！！

Uh, apparently she repeats that to herself on bad days. Hahaha I shall try it at my next roadshow.

 

Clydey's first encouragement

 

Indeed I have plenty to be thankful for. I need to quit being such a sob story.

Focus pocus Carol.

^^

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When the soul lies down in that grass,

the world is too full to talk about.

Ideas, language, even the phrase "each other" doesn't make any sense.

 

 

There are no ideas, no language. There is no conflict.

I will meet you there.

Right now I just want to be there. Relief that comes with watching the Bali sunset.

I don't want to be here.

To J

 

Keeping fit isn't just about the vanity.
At least to me, it is (more) importantly a test of endurance and mental toughness.

Said hello to a neighbor at the gym earlier....

THOUGHT CATALOG | 14 Ways You Know It's Love — Real Love
by Brianna Wiest
 

1. You feel compelled to be loyal.

 

2. You think of ways you will love them more than you think of the ways you hope they will love you.

 

3. You start compromising on things you thought you wouldn’t.

 

4. You’re happy when they are, because they are.

 

5. There is a sense of peace and ease that comes with the thought of them.

 

6. You feel challenged to be better.

 

7. You allow yourself to be vulnerable because you feel accepted unconditionally.

 

8. All of a sudden, you understand why so many people settle down.

 

9. You have a newfound understanding of and appreciation for your previously detrimental failed attempts at 'love'.

 

10. Every part of this person enamors you.

 

11. You keep coming back, no matter how hard it gets (and it will get hard).

 

12. You start counting the miles between you and the days between your birthdays. You remember what they were wearing the day you met them, what they said their favorite color is, and you start accounting for all the other little, beautiful things you’ve picked up about them, all in vivid detail.

 

13. You want to tell anybody who will listen of your newfound love (you’re not ashamed to be with this person).

 

14. Being with them is not about the vanity of having a significant other or an elaborate wedding or someone to talk to when you’re lonely. It’s who they are that keeps you.


There you have it, answer to the million-dollar question. :•)

"Next time you look back, I really think you should look again. "

Friday's reflection (I)

Considering the amount of dilemma in between and past months of bad condition,

I come out of the hall every time, thanking my lucky stars for every pass.

Thankful I need not waste money or additional time to retake the papers.

To the people who have encouraged me
despite knowing the person I am and the requirements of this career as being quite ill-fitting.... thank you!

Hahaha I have since decided:

There is nothing to fear in the unknown except your own mind.

 

Yep being an agent is no doubt out of my comfort zone.

Sometimes though, I think we gotta attempt that littlest possibility in order to learn what we're worth.

 

It's scary but there are too many opportunities for personal growth (in the sense of becoming a better/braver me)!

I am actually looking forward. :)

[edit]
I will be responsible for my own feelings.
I will exit at my own pace.

Focus, take another shot

 

A very lengthy post.

Just another day to myself.

Ah, awesome.

 

Hello Mr Labrador!

He stands at my waist level, teehee.

After gym today it was time for some reading.

Kinda sick of insurance/investment-related study hee.

 

I know too many girls who constantly need two, three or more simultaneous dramas playing out in their lives.

They allow them to happen.

The attention given by different boys, the chase, companionship;

basically having someone else to fall back on when the 'main one' screws up.

They juggle these relationships discreetly and build up a woman's so-called market value.

The funny thing is, these same girls are the ones who complain to me about feeling empty, directionless
and tired of dealing with the same old shit.

I put myself in their shoes and it seems to me like a diversification of options (just because we all are afraid of failure).

But personally I never did understand the logic behind settling or spending time texting/hanging out with people

you're jolly well sure wouldn't work out for nuts. Dating, is it called?

Punkie and best friends have pointed out a big change in me. I don't need love anymore.

When I used to be such a sucker for it hahah.... so much that I stayed in an unhappy relationship for four years.

I think I was really in love with the idea of love.

It isn't that I no longer need or want love now.

The number of entries here about that person probably already shows a liking quite substantial.

It's more like, there's an important person I want to focus on atm and it's either him or I'd rather be alone.

And with most people – that's exactly where the problem lies.

They find it difficult to commit their liking to just one person, if it lacks a certain promise of return.

Might sound silly to others ('putting all your eggs in one basket')

but I'm alright if my basket falls and all eggs break since that is where they should be rightfully placed.

My actions are in line with my feelings. So it's okay to pay the price.

The following extract rings true to what I believe in.

THOUGHT CATALOG | The Difference Between Being In Love And Being In Love With Love

by Brianna Wiest

(...)

When you’re really in love with someone, you want them: the good, the bad, the ugly. You come back at the end of the day. You are as accepting and nonjudgmental as you possibly can be. You don’t want to change them. You aren’t dreaming of the day when they’ll finally come into themselves or saying, oh, they look so much better when they put themselves together. You’re not scrolling to a better Facebook picture to show your friends. You’re not condescending. You don’t think their passions are a waste of time.

 

You’re not dreaming of a bright future more than you are dreaming of your next date, because being in love with someone means they make you happy right now. If you have to constantly resort to thinking about the great things that could come or dreams you’ve had that they could fulfill, you’re not in the moment with them. You’re just looking to see how they can be a role in your life.

 

When you are in love with love, you leave as soon as things start to get tough. You are waiting for the day someone becomes what you want them to be because you aren’t happy with who they are right now. And that’s another thing: sometimes people just fit into the idea of what we thought we’d want in a partner, so we think we’re in love because all the checks on the list are marked off. Don’t settle for someone who happens to have the qualities you think you’d find endearing.

Be with someone who is a cataclysmal force in your life, someone you want to work out issues with, someone you love just as they are now, someone on whom you don’t put any expectations, someone who makes you happy just because they are.


And at any point in time, there would only be one of the kind.

And remind me who I really am

Please remind me who I really am
 

YOU MAKE ME GLOW

 

I could send her a stamp as huge as this.

 

相信一个人， 不是只靠听说的。

I want to stay true to myself and be fair to others.

That's all I have been.

I also want everyone I care about to be genuinely happy.

But very often life isn't about giving you the best of both worlds.

It allows you your one choice and grants you some misery in return.

Will it be worth it? You don't know.

All you're sure of is that, 'there's no other way'.

 

From now I will show concern if I care, move forward if I like, and if I feel... then I'll love.

Feelings and wants really need no hesitation nor full length analysis.

They do not require participation after all.

My feelings and wants belong to me.

As long as I am true to myself (therefore to others)

.

 

FRIZZY, CURLY WURLY HAIR....... JUST TO LET YOU KNOW I MISS YOU.

HAHAHAHAHA!! I LOVE THIS PICT.

 

I hope he knows. 

 



休息是為了走更長的路

你就是我的旅途

都是因為你 我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最後

但我遺失了地圖

誰給誰束縛 誰比誰辛苦

愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情 最後雖然結束

感動十分 就有十分滿足

謝謝你 是你陪我走過那些路

痛 是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情 也許能夠重複
感動時分 就算紛紛模糊
不要哭 至少你和我記得很清楚
愛 是為彼此祝福

I'm still in love with this song.

 

A-B-C soup. Carrots to heal the eye.

Potato... because I love, love potatoes....

 

(continued)

I don't need easy. I just need possible.

Learning everything about a person, and so quickly,

willing to take up the challenge to battle with whatever is pulling the two apart,

believing the other person to make things right even in the messiest of situations.

Isn't that what every valued relationship is about?

Would you hold on to a difficult relationship, knowing that the good is awesome,

although the bad is shit... because you cannot let go being so attached once?

I would. The many moments long ago or brief as they were, are irreplaceable.

But it kind of sucks to realize you've been seated at the sidelines all this time, watching us decay.
Because if this was all worth it, if I was important even for a while, you'd care if I was truly happy.

Beneath the outward appearances you could have looked just a little harder and found my simple message:

In this place I will only be truly happy if things were how it began.

You wouldn't have chosen the easy way out.

I do not deserve whatever niceness, sacrifices and patience that comes with — or without conditions.

 

Finally. To ride out anytime, anywhere. Whenever I need an escape.

 

Decision.

 

For too many reasons I shouldn't, and cannot leave these people.

Friendships I can fully trust, people who genuinely care,

people who make me curl into balls of laughter every day.
I wouldn't mind eating breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper with them.

I realized it's not about how long you have been acquainted. Quality counts.

Certain friends I've considered myself close to over years cannot even compare.

 

But time has proven I need to step out of this circle.

 

Every moment I am still here becomes a sad reminder/remainder of what we are.

Even when you're not physically around.

The mention of your name weighs fifty kilograms.

It's funny how no one notices something that feels like explosion inside.

 

Change. Happens in life and it is not the biggest deal.

Somehow though I am not logical when it comes to you.

 

I tried hard to prove your importance to me.

Not for anything more. Just for that bare minimal we once were.

I started conversations (stupid aimless ones), I replaced my nervewrecking emotions with confidence,

yeah I've not done much -- but I have indeed put myself out there very plainly.

Either it doesn't matter at all, or you're refusing to see it.
Any way is fine.
Because right from the start, every move to keep you close has backfired or been misinterpreted.

You're a super duper good person, and even though I can't say I know everything about you,

I believe in that person I grew to like over time, over spaces, over circumstances.

I won't let anyone tell me who is worth it and/or who isn't.

I'm glad it is someone like you that affected me this much.

 

I know you'll be happiest when everyone is together, trouble-free, enjoying simple fun.

I wanted so badly to give you that. What normal I could do, I really did.


But I must finally take some better advice.
I can't be there with them, with you, and expect to one day stop feeling the way I do.

All-visual post. Some happy birthday shots.
Bleeh my head looks very big. :(

A life without any form of love, is no life at all.
To all the relationships worth celebrating. :)
 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO.... UH ME ☺!!

 

You can't kind of love a person and they can't sort of love you.

This is propped up against my desk wall. 

Thank you to you, you and you. ♥

I was awkward. They said my face flushed red aaah.

I didn't know where to stand nor what sort of expression to give. 

Been a long time since I last blew the candles off a mega cake...

 

or even be part of a reunion dinner made up of laughter and good food.

(OMG the salted egg prawns are super nom nom worthy!!)

Complete with awesome friends.

One of the best bunch (literally, think banana) of people I have met in life.

Strangely embarrassing - to steal 30 seconds of each and everyone's time to sing us our song. 

I hope I didn't appear too unemotional/stoned.
Because deep down, I truly appreciate the little things I've gotten to feel in this big family. 

I'm just bad at expressing myself in a social setting.

So, thank you to you, you and you. ♥

Spent a whole two hours at the gym earlier. 

45 minutes on my favorite elliptical machine, 40 minutes on the treadmill, leftover time for toning and weights.
Stretched my limits so that I'll feel tired (by now), and just fall into a damn deep sleep. 

Already 2AM. Nope.

I'm feeling tired lately. Maybe it's the quarter century crisis I don't know.

Masks

 

Homesick for a place I've never been.

THOUGHT CATALOG  | The Person You Think About Before You Fall Asleep

Grand-Aunt 22 January | Chinese New Year

Iphone 5 is quite a jinx.

For the third time, I headed back to the ulusamy Harper Road today.

The unit I ordered online after selling my first had receiver problems.

And so they repaired it.... but while doing so they screwed up my cover.

It became a little lopsided on the left. I could have lived with it, but heyy why should I!

I could have lived with it if the phone cost me 9.48. Nope. There is no decimal place.

And so I diligently made the trip again, expecting the issue to be solved once they re-align the screen.

Ah why do they keep operating on my new phone!? :(

Wheeeee. The staff wasn't able to fix it.

I told the girl (in a slightly annoyed tone), "No I have not dropped it. It was perfectly fine before I sent it in."

I think my face was gray too. Aiyah the sun. The sun very HOT la hahahaha.

She nodded and scooted off immediately.

The boss then kindly offered me a 1-1 exchange. A brand new set straight from Apple.

I checked that it wasn't refurbished so..... hip hip hurray!!

 

This is my third iphone 5. I must break the curse.

It's actually a good thing that I have been staying away from messages/calls, except the V.I.Gs (very important girls).

I don't feel as crippled without a phone anymore.

I do know however (when I'm back) I will need to improve on my texting etiquette.

I always get the sarcastic bomb: "wow you reply fast" ...after 4-5 days. Hahah.
I conclude I am indeed rather rude.

I sometimes disappear midway during virtual conversations because I see no commitment to carry on.

I chuck my phone aside as soon as the fingers get lazy to type.

Apparently, we are supposed to end off with 'ttyl' or 'brb' or 'cya soon' or 'goodnight'.

Somewhere along those lines to cut the other party off.
Are we?

Yesterday.

A lot of walking. Time alone was well-spent as always. 

Then we had dinner (salmon mostly!) at T3's Itacho Sushi. 

They have such a wide variety of grilled sushi I took damn long to decide. 

Hungry like a wolf....

See see the fatty, luscious (wrong descriptive but heck) sashimi.

Midnight reading.

Love is hard to believe, ask any lover.
Life is hard to believe, ask any scientist. 
God is hard to believe, ask any believer.

What is your problem with hard to believe?

Parting is part and parcel of life.
♥ Z-E-L-I-A ♥

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBOOOOOOOODY!!

Here comes two thousand thirteen and beyond.

As usual at this time of the year social media becomes very very action.

Hahahaha it is filled with reflections and resolutions, post after post, feed upon feed.

 

I don't usually make a list.

But as I mentioned... to define a path from the present must be kept in mind this year.

I have habitually been stuck at the same place for too long.

There is no past. The past exists for us to dwell miserably on what used-to-be.

We then weep, feel sorry about something, start missing a big part of the good,

smile a little, think somemore and finally we realize the past is no longer happy to recall.

 

At least that's what happens to me.

 

There is no going back. Moving forward is however, and of course possible,

so I really need to learn how to define my path based on every present situation.

I am not aiming to change myself though. I have never been overly rational and will never be.

Why would anyone choose to ignore their innermost feelings?

I will not give up on my passion, ideals, and I will not give up on the people whom matter. Nope.

BUT it is time for me to progress towards things I seek in a more practical way.

 

Oh it begins with bedtime. :D

Instead of complaining about my horrible eyebags/dark circles,
blaming them on bad genes haha (because I am dang sure it is inherited),

I shall sleep by 12am every night from now. Fix it!!

(edit)

Been running about the past two days, I am surprised I've accomplished everything!

And within 48 hours heehee. I usually complete only 1/10 of errands.

A little freaked out now. A little might be an understatement.

Tragic. I don't know what else could be worst.

As I read the article Connecticut School Shooting 'Gallery of the Innocents' and scrolled through face after face,
I felt sick to the stomach. True that what's left today are only photographs.
But it is not hard to imagine these babies while they were alive and well.
The thing I love most about little children – their smiles. A kid's smile expresses everything about them. It is honest.
It is sweet cheeky sheepish mischievous kind hopeful shy all at once.

Each of the 26 victims were shot up to 11 times by a semiautomatic rifle, with two of the victims being shot at incredibly close range. The bullets had pierced everywhere – heads, extremities, and torsos.

I know God teaches us to forgive.
And the gunman himself probably lived a hard life to commit such an act of madness..

Adam Lanza planned his murderous rampage with meticulous precision, destroying his computer's hard-drive to hinder investigators and rigging his semi-automatic rifle "Rambo-style" to fire with maximum efficiency.

The bullets used in the massacre were designed specifically to penetrate deep tissue and do a devastating amount of damage. The killer used "frangible ammunition", inflicting wounds that are usually beyond medical help.

But there is no reason good enough. Not even insanity.

For all the innocence you pulled down under with you, for the millions of hearts you effectively broke,
I will need to say this tonight

fuck you Adam Lanza.

Really really fuck you.

Just months ago I researched for an article on school shootings in the U.S.

And yesterday morning, 27 lives were lost during the Connecticut shooting: Sandy Hook Elementary School.

Elementary.

Twenty children made up of five to ten-year-olds.

Their last moments probably filled with fear none of them could even comprehend.

 

What cruelty.

America really needs to step up on gun-control laws, and the public's vigilance of mental health.

 

My heart goes out to all the innocent kiddos, teachers and their families.

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21/12/2012 end-of-the-world?

I don't know, but I am looking forward to it because I'll be meeting.....

them love! #thebeegees

For several weeks I've been keeping fit through Nike Training Club, in particular its Sweat + Shape workout.

The intensity literally makes you sweat (within 25 mins I look like I just came out of the shower).

NTC alone is enough exercise thanks to its variety of objectives. It is also super convenient and time-saving.

Although of course, discipline is something even the awesome-est app cannot help with. Haha.

But I'll be heading back to the gym starting from tonight!

I plan to sign up for the 2XU half marathon with Felly and Banana Boys.

I have never ran long distances because of MVP... I don't know if my body's up to it.

I do know I am up for it so I'm going to try. Try, try, and try some more.

I need something to look forward to in 2013.

People Help The People by Birdy.

This may sound like big words, but in time to come I'd want to make a difference to these people.

Even if it's only for a handful and never enough to make a real difference.

I think more than once in a lifetime, we need to place ourselves amongst the less fortunate to stay thankful for the simplest things we own. What could the definition of small joy mean for the little one above?

And what is yours and my definition of 'small joys'?

JY and I sometimes have conversations about change.

I am always skeptical. I doubt how much one person (or even a group of advocates) can do to alter the world.

To save a going-to-be extinct animal, for example.

Now I think it is about being somewhat dedicated to this change. It starts from cliché it starts from me.

Yes.

  

And if you're homesick, give me your hand and I'll hold it

People help the people

Nothing will drag you down

Reflection + Critical Exegesis (killller) down!
YIPEEEYAYYAYYAY. : D

It's chilly December again.

The season of lovin'! Yeah even if you haven't got a lover teehee.

When people tell you time flies... believe them.

I won't be seeing these girls, Syl too, as much next year

or the bunch of funnysmart boys once we officially graduate.

School has been manageable thanks to awfully helpful mates, 

and of course our cooperation as a class to draggggg for extensions.

HAHAHA PROCRASTINATOR UNITED FOR THE WIN.

Ischmimi why you so cute?

Soon it'll be December again.
Christmas Day last year we celebrated her birthday,

and a month later.... she left us for good.

Yay received a text message from Apple.

My second i5 (brand new, scratch-free) is arriving in approx. 3 days!

 

This means a formal goodbye to my trusty 3G that I've thrown around,

dropped like 10928237 times and still in positively good condition!

For funs' sake, and to offset the boredom of waiting for shipment,

I dekorated it with cutesy animal stickers muahaha..... TAADAH.

See see the king of my zoo? BLUE ELEPHANT.

Couldn't find it in orange. ;(

 

The pop up stickers are like bloody expensive.

Cheap thrill I know, but Ivy and I had balls of laughter

deciding where each animal should be placed to make sense!

 

Okayokay I am turning mid-twenties in.. *horror* don't-want-to-continue.

Away.