Four days ago I posted this
with no mention of Him.
I hardly go to church. I don't talk about my belief. I do not even speak for Him when others criticize the religion. Often, I forget to pray for months. But every single day of my life... God is here with me.
Two mornings ago I cried in bed. For a good 5 minutes. I looked at my phone. There were too many things to attend to, besides concentrating on the core business. October was almost halfway done. I was still far from San Francisco. They tell me my points are soooo close it'll be a waste. They tell me about places we could go together. But what if close is simply not enough? It would kill me to disappoint their high hopes. To hit Gelac is more than personal accomplishment. I also wanted something to show Dad and Punkie. With all that stress catching up, I thought about God. I prayed.
Then I headed to office. I am extremely lucky to be able to work with people who are crazily capable in this field. But it can get overwhelming. I tried to tell them maybe next year...
D: NO WAY. I'm not leaving you behind. Count your points. I perform *magic* for you.
I send a sun + smiley every morning so you won't waste time crying.
J: Don't be a dick (?!?? lol) Machi. You're a dick if you leave us alone at SF.
Haha. The way I woke up that morning, I could never have turned that mood around in a few hours. I did. I know every good thing that happens, every good person surrounding me are God's answers to my questions. It's hard to put in words - what I've prayed for and how he has answered to them - but believe me, He has. Yea I don't mention it over social media or talk about God a lot. This is my own space though, and I really want to thank Him for his love. =)
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