A Fraction of Fiction

HOME ALONE NIGHT #13. GRATITUDE.

It hasn't been all that bad. There were moments when my heart took a leap, at the sound of this and that. There were moments when imagination ran wild as I opened the door to darkness at 3AM. Hey! I'm only afraid of two things. That is: 1) Cockroaches 2) Darkness. I am otherwise very, very brave.

 

I want to say I am super grateful to Ivy who stayed over with me on Wednesday even though it was inconvenient in some ways. For once, we didn't have to go separate ways after a fun evening. We bought yummy apple strudel for breakfast (which I prepared with TLC HAHAHAHA). Every single thing is a joke when we are together. It's impossible to describe how much we can laugh without needing a good reason. I don't know if I have said this before, but she is probably the only person in my life that I am a 100% me – always. :) With her I never have to think twice about what I want to say or do because she has seen every side of me. And she loves me anyway! Even with Punkie, I am at most 97.9%. Punkie expects a lot from me, so sometimes I know that certain ideas/behavior may not go down well with her. I want to be that independent, mature and capable little sister she hopes to nurture. I know she loves me no matter what too. But at times I really feel like being extremely silly, build my castles in the air and what some might call dreaming. Other times, I feel like I'm sucked into emotions that are out of my control - and Punkie doesn't like me to dwell too much. It is actually a good balance. Having Ivy let me be me and then having my big sister to slap me awake. Teeehee. Either way I love the both of them to the moon and the nine planets and back.

Back to Wednesday's dinner!

 This is so near my office. I use it to tempt all my girlfriends to come by.

Best curry fishhead ever.

 

Lights out. She wanted to leave a 'small' light on but I refused to.

You got small light? You got small light? HAHAHAHAHA.

We chose a horror movie and ended up having to accompany each other to pee later on.

 

 Thank you honey.
For making the effort to be my partner in so many things.

For your message that read 'Honey choose! Tuesday Wednesday Thursday? I stayover!'

For knowing I actually meant Yes-Please even when I said No-Need.

There's really no friend like you, no better friend than you.

I hope I am to you what you are to me. That is, awesooooome.
I love you! ♥

 

I am also thankful for weekly sessions of.......

 

 YOGA.

 

Along with Dee, Punkie, Sue and Aly, we have SO MUCH FUN during Shinta's class. Dee and I agree it's our motivation to pull through the busy week. Every Friday we are basically a wham-bam mixture of the four kiddos above. No kidding! Dee and I are going to achieve a full headstand soon!! Don't doubt. I missed class for two weeks due to appointments and it felt like the best thing in the world to be back. And was I amazed at the ratio of men to women now. The boys are like swans hahaha. We chilled with Shinta and some fellow yogis over dessert before going over to Thomson for supper (sweaty hair naked face alllllll). It was an 'earthy' TGIF with close ones and I'm grateful for their company.

 

I'm grateful yoga walked into my life. I'm grateful for getting to know meditation. I make time for meditating 10 minutes in the morning and at bedtime. I still experience negative emotions of course, that's part and parcel of being human. But at least I start and close the day feeling at peace with myself. More importantly with the world. 

 

I started reading up on meditation initially to become a better daughter. I wanted some way to counter the hurt and anger I feel every time she picks on me which is um, every day of living under one roof. Daddypops pointed out it is impossible to change someone like her. So I decided to change my own state of mind - to deal with it. But apart from problems at home, yoga and meditation as a package has bettered my perspective in many ways. It gives me a bigger heart towards people. And restores my faith in a kind of happiness that comes from self. For girlfriends who asked, I personally do the basic breathing meditation. It's as simple as ABC! You should google for more profound explanation but in my own words it goes like this: you sit straight, close your eyes, throw out every thought and focus only on the sensation of your breathing in and out. You then work to remove any feelings of tension. I combine it with the earth, water, fire, air and space element theory that Shinta taught. I know this sounds a little nutty but a few minutes every day does help you to see things more positively. When the going gets tough. Really lah!

 

Good morning!