# 98

Baby & I came to an awful realization
over lunch today at his house.

in just a few months,
(few enough you can count with 1 hand)
i'd be hitting the Big Two. Twenty.
Twenty years of living. Teenager no more.

now don't laugh because in case you're guessing
it does not concern the appearance nor my height (:
its fear of what lies ahead beyond the number.

and thinking of it is turning me pessimistic. lol
maybe i'll come back & write again.

completing FSF ppt is fulfilling. 0230 AM
i can head to bed with a peace of mind!
updates soon zzz