# 82

i moved house today.
this time back to Mom's place, again.

freak'g backache, shoulder pain, muscle cramps!
the 2 hours of shifting done by Dad & me only. rwah
i've just gorged down a bowl of hokkien noodles
right now i feel like jumping onto the comfy bed zZz.
goodbye Mayflower Terrace. :)

oh yes last night i couldn't quit My Lucky Star
finished up the entire drama! yay
its a must-watch production & in my opinion,
even better than Why Why Love.

starring Korean actress Yoo Ha Na & Jimmy Lin.
in real life she's 21, he's a charming 33.
if you like soppy love that leaves you crying
+ scheming characters that leaves you cursing,
My Lucky Star is the thing yo.

i should stop swooning over Taiwanese series
but seriously, there's a few you ought to catch.
1. My Lucky Star
2. Why Why Love
3. Tokyo Juliet
4. Devil Beside You

to cure boredom if you are staring at the screen
wondering what to surf next.
http://www.veoh.com
highly recommended. (:

okay this post is damn random.
time to unpack heaps of rubbish
sitting on the floor. SICKENING.

# 81

few days back we headed out for goggle-hunting

& Mister P got himself a nice sepia view one.

then the day after, he swam in my pool
while all i could do was watch... :(
he went laps like as though it was the Olympics leh,
so i sat there enjoying the wind
& appreciating Mother Nature. >;(
took visuals of the view surrounding us.

and Baby fresh-out from the waters.
grrr see how happy he is??
it certainly don't make no difference to him
that i wasn't getting the same amt of joy on land!

had lunch with my Mom & lil' Zelia before tht.
hahahaha how i love the way my boyfriend
interacts with the small girl. :):)

Take 1 Take 2 Take 3
just look at how possessive she looks
stealing him as her own lol.

heheh she's damn helluva cute todd.

Grand Aunt's place for Mid-Autumn dinner.
brought Baby along especially to feast on food
'cause she's my favorite cook in the world.

***

MAMBO NIGHT MADNESS!!

stepped into Zouk again last night
since a very long break frm clubbing.
somehow its the day everyone's out to party.

Farhan, nice as usual drove Mister P & me there.
met up with Qing, Yins + friends for starters..
the baggage counter shit was f-up troublesome.
saw Clyde, Ivan and friends a while
before picking Xin & friend Lyndan frm entrance.
after shuffling to and fro many times
like phew we finally got to the wine bar in Phuture.
bought drinks, danced the entire night away. :)

its kind of impromptu. also my first time clubbing
with TBG & Baby, the people i love most!
therefore no matter how packed, or squeezy it was
i still had ultra ultra lots of fun. :D

bumped into few familiar faces from ij.
&& my lousy cam fone only managed
to capture 2 visible shots considering
the club environment & lightings.
shall upload the rest another time!

with Yins who's high all night.

& my deario Qing!



thank you baby for coming with me,
because i really wanted you to.
its something very special, the memory.
appreciate ur efforts & great love.
mwahhhs! :]]]

# 80

this week started too emo for my own good

but at least it ended well. (:

Friday 21/9
trimmed fringe, in process of reverting
back to side parting.
bang-bangs no more or maybe not.

Louis says it'll look bit weird for now
once it grows out i can cut it back in shape.

& i shall believe him.

met up with Ivy (yes again!) for dinner in town.
i can forget the bad stuffs just pigging out on food.
Coke lounge then decided to be damn romantic
& catch a movie which is rare because we seldom do so.
took a step further and chose... The Dead Girl lolol.
the misleading poster seemed gory we wanted something
to scare us into tugging at each other's flabby arms.

...
it wasn't horror nor near thriller genre at all.
i cannot define what exactly but an extremely dark film,
god the characters practically live by the suicidal look.
despite strong performances, i agree with this critic:
'The Dead Girl segues from one turgidly-paced,
soul-crushing sequence to another
with very little reason to continue watching.'
2.0/5 credit

Cathay should have put this up instead:

we were tickled by certain parts of the show
it was quite disturbing to watch actually. ;O

supper at Kopitiam after tht until 4am
talk/gossip/reminisc'g old times.
cabbed home tired but feeling much better!

:):):)

Saturday 22/9
TBG clique outing!

town for shopping till stomachs got hungry.
dinner at Wheelock's Sakae where we ate little
and gossiped a lot lot.
strolled over Cine just to get my flipflops
then camwhor'g at the red seats.
pity i wasn't in an awesome mood
to be fugly and distort my face enough.
took a few photos, sat at one side & grouched!

haven't got the rest, ones in my phone
are with Yins only.

okayokay i know my hair's off.
got mood to arrange when sad meh?!

Yins is bloody sweet. :)

still i enjoyed myself with the favorite girls.
got affected by small issue, sent a horrid text.
the reply touched me deeply
& i took her advice which led to my happiness
today. silly deario, you are the bestest ever.
i appreciate it all you know it. ((: loved, deardear.

yay tanning plans finally!
The Depressed Cult (quote Xin lol) disbanded,
TBG returns. :)

Sunday 23/9
yesterday was home day with Mister P!
night before almost landed in disaster,
i'm glad i made that turn back around.

woke up 12pm, headed downstairs for lunch.
his parents were back by then & a while after,
we had to prepare for beach picnic.
bit apprehensive at first since its a family thing
lucky it turned out pretty fun! :]
together with Baby, his Bro, Sister + parents
we set out on his Dad's lorry which is
flying windy & shiok at the same time.
really thankful to his Mom who made big effort
to make me feel welcomed... and accept me.

ate Kentucky's, fried rice/noodles blahblah
chipped in conversations a lil' cus im SHY ok.
& happiest moment was sitting by the jetty
with Baby by my side looking down at the sea.
especially high tide when it had such 3D sparks!
magical. lovely. together. :DDDDD

his parents are still very in love if you ask me,
i mean not bad for a going-50 couple luh.
usually ppl at their age are in a rls
for the sake of their family, commitment,
companionship, responsibilities... well hardly love.

i want my marriage to be fruitful too.
not 30 years down waking up every morning
feeling sorrowful & sick of the husband & family.
that'll be way too depressing to live. >:(

tsk digressing! so anyways packed up,
short nap at his house before Baby sent me off.
Macflurry ended the day on a blissful note.

i end this post, on a blissful note 2.

the rose has come alive,
ive fallen in love all over again.

# 79

connection was down last week

& so has my mood been drop-dead down.
thus i found a darker place to write in regularly
but blogger does it for me still. 'll continue to update.

depiction of frustration.
if you can see what i see...

hardly in any form to crack efficient nor lame jokes.
i can't even bring myself to smile now.
everyone has their bad days, today's mine.
or rather the cumulation of past events
have given me ultimate string of suxor days.

thankfully i headed over to Causeway Pt earlier on
for retail therapy with Ivy twinny. it is a big deal
else i'd be mopping home alone facing white walls,
lying on the bed having bouts of flashbacks &
occasional tear ducts squeezing themselves out.

so we had a uber duper slow-paced dinner.
me shelling my 3 big prawns carefully
her eating deer meat at 1 bite per minute. true!
talked a lot everything under the sun.
feels good to have her, somewhere i need not hide.
emotional/angry/depressed/happy/retarded/fugly
she's seen all sides of me as i have of her... :)
today was the depressed-until-retarded one.

babe's permed her hair its curly & fun to play with!
hahahaha anyways tell you what we did.
cheap thrill of lingeries as our therapy :)
&& yes it made me a whole lot happier than before.

took visuals with the lao pok cam phone.
i'm not allowed to post them though, until further notice!

that ends my day on a surviving note. :)
three smileys :) no more three wilted roses.
thanks twinny. i love you and your hair.

***

7 months lovely enough to me, yet
is it due time for signs of boredom & loss of affections?
is it due time for a permanent full-stop?
is it due time for a leeway of not caring anymore?
why can't relationships give me the same sweet love
on the first day till the very end.

other visuals might or might not be up.
all i want to show the world at this moment is,
finally a picture-perfect.

"you & me, circle of our devotion."

i've always wished, secretly or knowingly whichever.
but i've always wished tht our picture-perfect
might one day have its own happy ending.

a happy ending like this.

taken at Suntec, anniversary with Mister P.

after these doubts & changes & broken faith,
can we will we would we?
this detached turmoil is killing me from inside.

# 78

ashamed to be such a regular blogger now.

it either means 1) life is getting interesting
OR 2) i am a no-lifer who onlines everyday.

by the way
anyone who has reliable contacts
who are able or looking to rent out
- 2+1 hdb apartment /2 common rooms
- preferably no owner
- airconditioned, f/furnished
- allow pets
- budget $1.2k max / $400 per
- preferably Woodlands, Amk, Yishun areas
- tenants (my BigSis & me)
please let me know asap!
THANK YOU.

***

its contradicting how we are broke

but have been spending $ on food.
just last week, splurged on the below

New York New York's.
no special occasion or whatsoever
pure craving for current infatuation:

Salmon Steak atop Mash Potato...
the damn sauce can do wonders man.
no fishy smell so it's a MUST-TRY!

Giant Meatballs Spaghetti.
& because we were still dying to throw money...

more more $ on Pepperoni Pizza.
no regrets though, ambience + company
= FANTASTIC. (:

and today!
town with Mister P ; Forum Shopping Mall
which is a fucking hell branded building.
Dolce&Gabbana, Emporio Armani, CK, Marina Rinaldi,
GUESS, BlackJack, MaxMara the list goes on.

see? its P for Mister Poser. LOL

& M for Momo Monster
who's angry half the time hahaha.
happy baby? xD

i'd always thought Forum is an ulu nutplace.
headed there today with one ultimate goal.

that is my all-time favorite
GENKI SUSHI.

even their official logo is bloody adorable lor...





RIGHTTTTT??!
Genki reminds me of secondary sch days,
slacking with the FMU clique at Meridien's.

after a filling dinner of yummy Gyoza Ramen
+ plates of ala carte Sushi.
Mister P & I had random visuals taken:

i know we look terrifyingly fat.
trying to make fat look small here lol.

blah as usual i'm being ugly again.

trademark for every batch of photo-taking! HEHH

oh i forgot to mention
finally bought our rings a while back
and this is the best quality 3.2mpixels produce.

on Baby's fingers. :DDD

[ sweetheart ]

Lido to watch No Reservations after. happy-ending story
pity not all real-life good loves end up like such..
today's treasured. it drowned the bad ideas in my head.
& i truly hope this kind of days are forever
for a lifetime with you.

p/s to Farhan: every single ride appreciated. (:

listening to this old song
but the remixed version by a band.
it really makes sense.
*hint to Baby: i am a lyrical person.
scroll down for end note!

勇气
终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起 ((:
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

HAH TRICKEDDDDD YOU.
not much to say just a simple
Mogu tou ai Dabu dian!!

# 77

yet to be seen.
whether this new agreement will do us
more good or bad on both sides.

but i'm willing to try if its what he wants
to accept, to let go, to take time out.
i'm somehow confused.
what we talked about, is it really
trust or a break-free from restrictions?

i grew accustomed to the ways
our relationship moulded at the very start..
now its something different we have concluded,
so i guess its time to balance out my priorities.

and i will do because i know for one
that he brings me my happiness. =)

***

even though i'm not the nicety girl
who returns to comfort of home at 10 everyday,
even though i like my suppers and midnight movies
it don't prove i'm a horribly wrong choice
of your son's worth.
i don't have overpowering esteem
but ain't gonna cut myself down on this.
it'd really make everything much better
if they didn't hell judge me from the start.

randomly emo.

# 76

yesterday Ivy was my fab-ulous date.
lunch at Sumo House for cheap cheap food.
Amk Hub to walk around but bought nothing
then decided to Kbox, & its a freakin' 20 bucks
on a hot Thursday weekday afternoon...?!
uh uh.

sat at Mcronalds terrorizing lil malay toddler
until he threw his Happy Meal toys at us
and still dared to smile((: after that. lol

final destination - back to Mom's place.
swimming floating & splashing
followed by Sauna Bath session, was dope!
we swim fine alone you know.
put us together & it becomes standing in water,
having hilarious discussion of fats
or how exciting this virgin attempt is
seeing each other in not too appealing swimsuits.
I heart twinny HAMBAO.

***

Qing is my fab-ulous date today.
Far East for more shopping of shoes + dresses.
returned home empty handed again UGH..
got earrings & facial masks though.
dinner at Hans which disappointed
because of a 40mins wait and stingy portions served.
Cine whereby i cheated her of 20 bucks at NUM hahahaha
i am damn sorry okay?? :z
I heart dear ol' DEARIO.

met up with Mister P for movie Rouge Assassin.
starring Jet Li means its action-packed.
meaning absolutely power punched action.
Rouge Assassin gets 3.75/5 credit.

hmmm. great evening with him :]
considering it was the first sight of rainbow
after the fucking stormy weather of recent.

although 7 colors aren't showing obvious as yet

i'm hoping my ass off, that all will come clear soon.

we kept laughing at weird people today.
i saw this alien at level 5:
...









CAN'T YOU TELL WHY ALIEN?
wearing pastel pink from head-to-toe
and no! that's not its biggest mistake.
i didn't realize the alien is a fucking He
until Baby pointed out to me.
fine you're a cross dresser i've no problems whatsoever.
but would you please not tie pretty braids in your hair
or wear socks like you're a schoolgirl from Japan
or walk in a disgusting flowervase manner
with that forlorn expression on your face
because hello, nobody's gonna pick you up.
or actually you may want to do all that at home.
you caught everyone's attention
but not in a good way dude!

# 75

i don't know how i could keep calm.
listening to those piercing words run thru'
every fucking nerve of my pulsing pink.

i'll give you what you want because i am Momo Genie
& Momo Genie could do you a favor,
to disappear when she's not needed. :)
just never did think myself so insufficient.

for people playing tug-of-war with me,
congrats y'all might just win this game...
i'm sick & damn tired of pulling at my end
when the ratio is one to many.
after a hard slap today its even more disheartening.

# 74

this cumulative blogging should stop.

it seems like i've stuffs to update
after every weekend only.

you know its when i want to remember outings
alongside visuals & notes,
that's how the blog juice comes about for me.
maybe the persons reading this
think its boring & centered on my life
but really, i am focusing on mine.

Friday 31/8
supper with Baby & Clyde at S11.
talked over noodles + indian rojak,
was simple and nice catching up.. (:
before monkey zoom off to Boat Quay.

Saturday 1/9
Gataomo for supposed rebonding but
decided not to since its still rather straight.
accompanied dearest Chelly to dye hers ash brown,
end up i gt tempted to color my hair too.

cut/dyed brown/color treatment = S$ 62.00
$110 but because i brought >3 pple in,
they let me use 60% privilege discount heh.
regular stylists Louis & Jacky didn't disappoint
as usual service was precise, results satisfying.

lightest color my DAMAGED hair could go. >:(

met up with Baby and Farhan,
walked over to Paragon for Chelly's phone.

***
then i don't remember whatever took place.

just me and Baby later. bump-into Ivan&Hazel,
cute couple waiting 4 hrs for a movie lol.
so we watched 1408 hmmm... 3 stars?
i didn't quite like the ending parts though.
morphing of the room into Antarctica/Poseidon
was a little over dramatized to me.

o i'm posting a by-far UGLIEST SHOT EVER.
contorted expression+watermelon face.
readyyy?!! get set,










GO. WAHAHAH Baby says its ugly too. :(

more cockeyed to come.
we were a lil' cockeyed on high tht day..

LOLOL FUCK
we look like a couple with serious stroke
and mental disorder.

cam-whored a lot my phone's 3.15mp
suddenly resumed a 2mp resolution at least.
before it gives me yellowish blue pigment again
we had to grab the opportunity you see. (:

BABY BOO
ill refresh yr memory now, we've been most happy too.
the quarrels block out moments of love & capacity
but i need you to know tht
between us no matter how bad things get,
or how long the pain lasts
whether its pointless, hopeless or faithless
it will blow through & over.
so past days weren't bad. past days were good.
maybe not as good as always,
still i promise you
i'd never allow myself to sink in our fate. ok?
SMILE LOVELOVE! :]]

SMILE! :]

p/s: sorry tht i always interrupt
with tiny msges to boyfriend.
sometimes i just express better
this way than face-toface. ^)

Sunday 2/9
Mom's Birthday Celebration
day before actual.
started out on a damn bad note
yadayada the usual family drama...
then joy, peace & laughter thank god.
NewYork NewYork's for wonder lunch
with Baby, Big Sis&Rachel, Mom.
ohmyg Salmon Steak is the ultimate dish luh!!

AMK Hub was packed, so Jubilee for movie 881.
to the arcade while waiting.
played basketball shoots, daytona, mario race,
table soccer, drum mania, & my favorite Tekken!
all with my Mom either joining us or watching on.
HAPPINESS. :D

881 was... hokkien musical.
its sad but didn't bring on my tear ducts.
the whole getai costume & effects were impressive,
despite it being not our kind of show.

enjoyed a simple day like such
with the warmth of closest beings; family & my soul-mate.
its comforting to see her laugh & rattle on
even if it goes on & on & on & on..
because i know we are all she's got now,
doing what it takes to make her the happiest.

because i know how it must terribly suck
to celebrate your birthday
without one you pledged your entire life to,
and maybe she loved him the wrong way
but still she did love him most.

she talks about it then laugh it off
who knows the pain she feels inside.
22 years of emotions. he left her overnight.
yeah i'm sure she ain't guilt-free for this,
yeah i've seen the built up till today.
yet somehow i placed myself in her shoes
and know full well i wouldn't be half as strong.
i would have died away long time ago.
its life falling apart, completely.

the greatest woman of all. =)
i love.