studying at Lido's with Ivy ytd. :D
catching up a lil' & i watched her mug the day away! did my CMA tuts and still have not figured out a shit ugh. common test on Thurs both my failed modules.. :/
gt bored, drew up a proposal for our outings during the 2-wks holiday. one whole list and she approved all!
wahahaha yayness. reminiscing the times we hung out together every single day. just two of us.
ps/ twinny twinny twinnY i love YOU. <3
Jietian came along he's a funny boy.. million times better than tht fucken assshole with zero points.
super glad she found happiness frm pain at last.
we always do i guess. :)
dinner at Cine i enjoyed myself holding her hands!!
catching up a lil' & i watched her mug the day away! did my CMA tuts and still have not figured out a shit ugh. common test on Thurs both my failed modules.. :/
gt bored, drew up a proposal for our outings during the 2-wks holiday. one whole list and she approved all!
wahahaha yayness. reminiscing the times we hung out together every single day. just two of us.
ps/ twinny twinny twinnY i love YOU. <3
Jietian came along he's a funny boy.. million times better than tht fucken assshole with zero points.
super glad she found happiness frm pain at last.
we always do i guess. :)
dinner at Cine i enjoyed myself holding her hands!!
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hmmm plenty of pix uploaded
but will put them up later.
of recent i don't know whats wrong with me...
feeling down, like fucken sinking kinda down. esp in rls.
maybe because pple ard me have either been breaking up or dealing with problem problems.
its so unfair sometimes;
i try to refrain frm things he don't like me doing, but almost everyday i'm expected to deal with stuff that i don't feel comfortable about him doing. deal myself.
i should've gotten used to it long ago fuck yes..
still it affects the bloody same because the surroundings there will never, never ever change.
pissed him off & its pissing the hell out of my head..
god damn it my eyes are sick of being drenched
my big head's tired of bursting with thoughts,
(fucking lousy thoughts)
and myself, i'd god damn enough of this helplessness.
he's done his best and to me, much as he won't take this - i really tried to understand and ignore.
all i can do to distract myself. to lie to myself thats its okay its fine, ive done. much as i have i cannot do.
constantly reminded of what i dislike.
no blame no anger. i'm just feeling like as though my grasp on this roller-coaster ride is getting loose, slipping away and yet no one's there to hold me tight and firmly tell me do not let go. to tell me i'm still needed, to make me feel important as i was since the first day. someone to tell me that our ride have not changed.
no, no one's there.
passion overrides everything.
anything....... anyone.
but will put them up later.
of recent i don't know whats wrong with me...
feeling down, like fucken sinking kinda down. esp in rls.
maybe because pple ard me have either been breaking up or dealing with problem problems.
its so unfair sometimes;
i try to refrain frm things he don't like me doing, but almost everyday i'm expected to deal with stuff that i don't feel comfortable about him doing. deal myself.
i should've gotten used to it long ago fuck yes..
still it affects the bloody same because the surroundings there will never, never ever change.
pissed him off & its pissing the hell out of my head..
god damn it my eyes are sick of being drenched
my big head's tired of bursting with thoughts,
(fucking lousy thoughts)
and myself, i'd god damn enough of this helplessness.
he's done his best and to me, much as he won't take this - i really tried to understand and ignore.
all i can do to distract myself. to lie to myself thats its okay its fine, ive done. much as i have i cannot do.
constantly reminded of what i dislike.
no blame no anger. i'm just feeling like as though my grasp on this roller-coaster ride is getting loose, slipping away and yet no one's there to hold me tight and firmly tell me do not let go. to tell me i'm still needed, to make me feel important as i was since the first day. someone to tell me that our ride have not changed.
no, no one's there.
passion overrides everything.
anything....... anyone.
