# 46

I AM DEPRESSED. DEPRESSION SETS IN WHEN...

my SEXY is gone. gone!! rwrahhhhhhh!
sold away, collected today.
woke up in the morning and played with him for the last time probably. then the new owners came. took videos maxing out my phone's memory.. of its lovely lil' face.

a freaking Teddy Bear. :'(

very furry, runs to you with its wobbly tiny stubby legs.
tell me how not to fall in love with such a creature ?!
i pray his new home is warmest,
i pray he'll receive top-class treatment. :(((((((

but lucky for me Sunday wasn't entirely ruined by Sexy's departure. Dad + Aunt Doreen fetched Baby and me to Chinatown Pt. apparently when we met up for dinner on Fri, AD noticed i was limping, walked slower than usual.. so offered to buy me new shoes.
i must have appeared damn pathetic thats why LOL. :|

didn't find any heels i particularly liked. drove over to Wisma MNG where i finally chose a wallet. woohooooo which i desperately needed since dont-know-when luh.
to food republic for quite a 'family-catchup' dinner after BigSis joined us. at times like these occasional guilt runs through me, guilt towards my Mom.. sigh.
but guess it can't be explained just by looking at the surface of things nw.

oh well i had a happy day with them. rocks not having to sit public transport in burning weather, HAHA.
thank you to AD for the present, Dad for always being my Mr. Nice, and sweet Baby for shopping everywhere with me. (although i know it almost took your life away & you were secretly kp-ing half the time.) I KNOW IT. ;D right? righttt.

other pix up tmr or whenever..
im tired and my eyes need a rest.
SEXYsexySEXY i'll miss you you small pug.
hopefully your first night out is better than fine. :(

# 45

hellooo i'm back frm blog hiatus.
busy +no mood +no life = blog hiatus.
i have quite a lot of life actually.

town with Phyl last wk, zomg been 2 yrs since we saw each other!! nervous to meet her 1-on1 again after long but it turned out nice. catching up at Starbucks, walking ard (her with her super duper high heels -.-").

she still wants a boyfriend like EMINEM!! in Singapore!
you tell me HOW CAN. HOW CANNNNN !?
miss her very much. calling her mushroom 'cause of her bob hairdo those days. going for the same loser-fied cca where'd we fix mikes and adjust volumes together.
hahaha &studying at Macs'.
ps/ waiting for you to return frm Taiwan. :) more outings!

SHOW Y'ALL SOMETHING.
SOMETHING DAMN FUCKEN ADORABLE...







THE CUTEST LIL' PUGS ON EARTHHH !!

BigSis's three little pugs. MINE TOO OKAY.
i take care and check on them everyday lo!

Pup Number 1: Moo-Moo, because he's spotty like a cow. & all cows go "moo-moo".

Pup Number 2: Benji - fat and greedy and naughty.
everything NOT nice except CUTEEE. x)

Pup Number 3: SEXY, my favorite!!
he got DAMN smokin' HOT eyes aye.
too bad they're sold and worth freaking 2k or so. UGHHHHH. i tell you the way they stutter and walk is super cute, ehhh cuter than penguins.
we agree penguin walks cute yeah?

UNCLE RINGO'S FUNFAIR on Tuesday!! with my Baby!
FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN EVERYONE SHLD GO.
it ends 27th May so HURRY.
10 for two most thrilling rides, 7.50 for ferris wheel.
5 bucks for kidz so-not roller coaster LOL.

we sat the $10 rides, Vortex & Challenger. fucken thrilling esp Vortex. almost threw up our dinner and tht Baby really felt like he's Superman flying into the sky HAHA.. enjoyed myself tre-tremendously. :D
not to mention we escaped with free entry on one.

Vortex. one word SHIOK.

enormous sparkly FERRIS WHEEL we gonna take tmr!
p.ps/ long-awaited ride.. lets make it happen. :)

stuffs he doodled on my CMA notes. lame shit but i so loveee. fuck he drew me a pig and himself some spastic muscle man. o_o" UGH but why am i smiling.

yeah no freakin' idea why i posed like tht.

all i can say "poor old duckie". >(

MATCH-ED. & this pic wasn't even pre-planned.

as always i'll end;
INSANELY YOURS.

# 44

can't fall asleep. not surprising for an insomniac

but theres an extra cause for it tonight...
ugh my blogging is very random.

outing with TBG last thursday!! full force.
sakae at Wheelock for dinner +pix session after.
Qing. Xin. Yins. :))) i still find it amazing how these friendships are kept intact, despite the split of FMUs.
our past clique. maybe gone, maybe will be revived ?
for now ive gt them 3 &its a blessing enough.

:))) )

> DEARRRRR

> KIKI SEAHHHHH

> YINSSSSS

Girlfriends like such.
ps/ come unusual gathering! haha

went to school like a good girl today for IBS roleplay interview. guess i scored quite alrighttt so shall buck up for next assignment i might hit lucky pot and earn my first B+ in 2yrs?? or B. anything more than a stupid C D or F for fishy can LOL. :X

628 hawker for lunch. then yck for homecooked dinner at Mom's. headed hm to watch Alien vs Predators. didnt think i'd be in frequency with such corny shows, turned out exciting though ha. most imptly another day spent with my favorite lil' boy yeah still a boy. wahahaha my Baby. :D

this serves a purpose. p.ps/
a candy for twinnY & Mingyao if y'all guess correctly,
hmmm.. where i gt my pants frm. HAHAH ;)

-
i told myself i won't mention but i'm only human.
insecurities, selfishness, disappointment... sadness.
i feel it all. pls understand. pls be in my shoes.
for my anger, ive already taken it all away.

# 43

blocked nose, sore throat, cream, &pills. >;(

not exactly the best feeling in the world.

caught Wild Hogs the movie with Baby!
COMEDY AT ITS MAX.. he likes their kinda jokes. laughing his tollhouse cookie out beside me.
at the same time asking me why don't i laugh too.
-.= LOL but it is a funny show lahhh.

updates +many many pix.
random eventsss.

Baby's desktop.

... the CPU is fucking nice.
see-through and has colorful bling blings.

"Donut Factory" day. headed over to Raffles City, queued for the famous donuts.

reflective differences. :[
waited 1+ hr for tht orange box he's carrying.

so we bought 12 donuts, fed 2 stomachs!
spot the odd one out? cos' baby bit it off. :(

sweet, thickly baked & flavored roundys.
favorites were Apple, Kaya, Double Choco.
not a donut person but still i found them yummyyy.

feasting on his belated anni prez. :)

back to yck for dinner with Mommy the babysitter.
her lil' toddler Zelia... cuteness aye!

btw she wasn't crying,
was just squirming in delight. :D

had Grandma's burfday celebration last wk.

hilarious we had bottles of Heineken's after dinner and Aunt Cheryl got damn drunk. blabbering nonsense. watched I Not Stupid2 there with my horde of tiny cousins. that movie still makes me tear somehow. love my BigSis.
although you call me chao bobo! hahahaha.

and i'll say Admiralty is a cosy place.
i'm so enjoying the moments.

our lil' supper trips at the playground.
icelemontea+sprite, fries with lots of mayo & chilli, soya bean milk, icecream, oreo cookies, twisties, burgers, strawberry collon, you name it we had it. =)

and very dope ban mian.
but Admiralty wouldn't be Admiralty
without the love of my life.

the words mean everything i really wanna say to you.
might have said them alr, but it stands for my believe.
so 1x, 2x, 50x, 100x, 101x..
i'm still gonna repeat them again.
love love, my Darling.

# 42

strained.
but i wanna carry on.

tired.
yet knowing i can still push on.

helplessness.
its slowly taking over me.
...
this thing called, "his passion".

if only i can be half as important as his other love.
its always not enough.
i want it all the time, it comes and goes.

:[
UNDERSTAND.
I MUST DEAL WITH IT.
I MUST UNDERSTAND.

# 41

tht r a i n b o w after the storm ;
its always especially comforting..
somethin' to be thankful for.
somethin' to strengthen from.

gloomy,grayness,very damn scary.
like strangers,far apart,hanging on a thread.
but yeah

tht r a i n b o w after the storm ;
you make it all worth the while.
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3
<3

seven hearts for every color,
seven for my favorite number.
seven for bliss in seventh heaven,
my seventeenth with you
till ever & forever.

# 38

a carton of HL Milk everyday!
decided.. will not give up on my hobbit's height.
i shall grow another 2-5 cm. jump.

tutorials start next wk.. back to school.
unfamiliar faces. im in like 4 different classes ugh!
which might equals to loner.
buttttt.. my timetable is LEGENDARY.
makes up for it all wahahaha. >;D

ok few days back, have some pix to upload.
Friday the 13th headed out to town for movie Turistas with Mingyao, Mak, &Ivy. sequenced by arrival time so you can guess who reached last. :x

Ah-Beng, Rocker, Goth Chic, and the Gong kia. ^^

bump-into Graceee. higher than ever.

twinnY, me & ms Hyper. lol.

last Sat TBG meetup for dinner at yoshi's.
starbucks with Qing dear while waiting for slow Baby.
watched The Reaping. The Reaping > Turistas.
full-cast! yayness. :)

my favorite girlfriends.

and how can i forget to mention
every 17th is a special date..
Happy 2nd Month !! :D
still more to come.
despite the non-stop quarrels,
ill always wish for more to come.

lets live happily-ever after.
shall we My Baby ?

we should be.. till infinity.

# 37

deleted the angry entry..
because im a happy girl again.

although of recent ive gotten myself emo a couple of times.. relationships. fragile pieces of memories?
the past, no matter hw long or used to be treasured
... once gone its gone.
no turning back just like how i fell and hit my heart hard. once, twice.. &i certainly don't wanna thrice.
the pain unbearable you can give up everything.
sigh its fucking hell sad.

look ahead swtie, another one will come your way.

and give tht other "one" some time to find you.
in the crowd you will stand out.

ugh shall drop the :( issues.
supported Baby in danceworks' Finals on Sat. and im damned proud of him! heheh shhh. met him after the perf, back to Jurong for dinner at "tha-usual", then walked a long distance to JEC just to get my ice cream. craving lahhh...!!

YAY my Cornetto's Blackforest.
& his Paddle Pop. <- kids' stuff. xD Baby finished his PP, got depressed...
& decided to take a swipe at mineee.
how grossly it looks like after his bite! =[

wahahahaha like goo you know.

i think this gorilla-pic is unflattering.
putting it up only because he says, "I LIKE IT."simple things like these,
i find it horribly exciting with him.

sweetness -
both the ice-cream and red monster beside me. :Dpix taken at HK Cafe.

my oh my, we are becoming major cam-whores.

i am SOOO SMILEY now.
suddenly recalled he taught me how to drum ytd!
i can drum i can drum i can beat in sync maybe two counts.. & then i go off-pitch.
-.- BUT STILL! i like the repetitive sounds i produced.
thank you you Darling. :)

# 36

Differences.
one word can bring about endless conflicts.

just got back frm dinner at Grillerz with Chelly Wonky.
and she owes me a handful of Jelly !
x) wahaha inside joke.

now im drained.
i seem to be taking wrong steps all the time.. hai.
when its too much to take, i wanna scream out:
"yeah blame it all on me."
but then it comes out with tinges of sarcasm?
why... tomorrow shall be a better day.

# 35

argh splittin headache nw... :[

met the stnicks' clique ytd.
Qing dear, kiki Seah, Yins, Kiat, Wai &Xiu - FMUs gathering! god i havent seen 3 outta 6 of them since 2yrs back minus the occasional bump-intos. too late to join them at Paragon so we all walked over to Cine for my dinner and catchin' up. :) hp died = misunderstandings.
= no pix taken. except for:

and... an altogether-photo! yay.so there they left for last train while i hung out with Xinghui, BigSis &Rachel waiting for Ivy.

wahaha i bought this e_______ (insert favorite animal*) tee shopping at the Stomp sale! alright i shall not brag.

twinnY arrived and off we went to Dblo for ladies night. &we quite heart it! because R&B music was good, classy atmosphere. yeah though crowd's largely darker-skinned > us, i enjoyed their presence. very.. erm... very High. the way all clubs shld be! woot funnnnn. joined Mingyao &his buds GH, Noel, Ben, Shihui &few other girls. danced with my favorite partner until it ended. Les is dope lor!! hahaha. \m/

being dehydrated +hungery pple after, twinnY &me headed to Geylang with Mingyao &GH. frog leg porridge was blooody ex! settled for hokkien mee i took quite long to eat i don't know why.. scooping but the noodles seemed endless. RAHHHHH. sat at some nearby void deck talking till dawn. talking about Gore. Horror.. fingers mutilated, eyes gorged out &yadayada.
oh and had a lil discussion/dispute over our various dance history/fashion. LOLOL funny shits!!
took a freaking 2hrs journey back hm.
disgruntled. TIRED. frustrated.
explains why i woke up with this fucking headache luh.

hmm day before ytd.. Wonderful with a capital W. why?
yummy BA CHOR MEE supper with him after watching Xtreme Makeover family series. -.-

the BlingBling ice cream i so adore.
given by the lovely one.

EHHH. this is damn-Grouchy Baby & Friendly me! HEHEH. xD

we cam-whored a lot after a Majestic bowl of noodles.

sorry for the quarrels;capital Wonderful becauseeeee..

i got PIGGY-BACKED hm frm TohGuan coffeeshop which is like 2 or 300metres away. and my Baby ran across the road like how coolios is tht right. :D
and no, no disagreeing allowed. lucky it was 4am else it wld have been highly shocking for motorists ard.

whoa look at me flyyy man. :| cheap thrill.

&WHY. WHY MUST YOU SCREAM LIKE THT.
AM I THT HEAVY TO CARRY.....??!
gdbye world. i go heal my throbbing head.