We write to taste life twice: in the moment and in retrospect.
Lately this place has been inconsistent. I have not liked myself so emotional. Yet when I am it's such a release to typeeee than think. I thought hard about giving this place up. After all, I no longer felt like logging even the happy days. But it is only here that I can like freely. I reflect on my job, appreciate friends, sigh about loss and celebrate victories. The depth of my thoughts so raw it's cool. What would I do without it? I'd be wasting a lot of ink and paper.
It will all become better.
Last weekend I opted out of a party night to meet my favorite pair. Glad I did. They waited patiently for me to finish work and have our 21:00 dinner together. Surprisingly Foo didn't scold me. He said I could just re-spawn. Hahahaha! They are easily one of my favorite people. We hung out till 0400. I don't remember what we talked about. I remember laughing hard my sides hurt. It's nice being with them. I never have to think before speaking or care about my presentation. I know I am loved despite being quite retarded around the two.
Time is extremely limited now. I rarely get home before 12. I don't have enough time for myself, not to mention others. And so I really appreciate the hours I get with the ones close to heart. I'll always make time for them because no amount of success or money can pay to buy the friendship of people who love exactly who I am. (:
Yay going to bed early tonight!
