A Fraction of Fiction

Believe me.
I try very hard, with every ounce of emotive muscle (if there is such a thing)

but with everything you do it gets harder to undo.

Is it strange to miss someone who doesn't even belong to you?

Then I guess I have been strange lately.

No matter what your mood or what you say

I like... because no matter how much it angers, irritates the shit out of, makes me laugh or smile inside

it is still the same conclusion I get.

I know this is as far as we are getting. I have never been brave enough to chase x (the unknown)

while you, you're basically someone I should never even have dreamt of liking.

I always let myself indulge in writing. The unexpressed, unspoken, the angels and the demons.

But I cannot let me get carried away into nothingness.

So! This will hopefully be my last post on you and the emotions you bring me.

They are emotions that I am thankful for, emotions I think about every single night before falling asleep,

emotions I haven't felt (or allowed myself to feel) in a long, long drastically long time.

And its only happening now because it is you.

Butterflies flutter and fly.

Glad you came, anyway. ;)
Not losing you is the beauty of a secret worth keeping.

Distance is too difficult I shall turn to meditation instead ha ha funny.

Itunes seems to be psychically in-tune with my thoughts at 4am.
Meaningful enough.

I feel like I'm drowning in ice water
My lips have turned a shade of blue
I'm frozen with this fear that you may disappear
Before I've given you the truth

I bleed my heart out just for you

I've always dreamed about this moment
And now it's here and I've turned to stone
I stand here petrified as I look in your eyes
My head is ready to explode