fear of an audience
(be it judges, peers or even.... friends)
has given me severe performance anxiety.
i was really disappointed that day
not with the outcome or the event,
but because it made me realize
i am going to be my own destruction.
no one else seems to bother much about
the camera rolling, the glaring spotlight above,
the people listening nor the straight-faced judges.
on a wtf contrary those were all that engulfed my mind.
weakened knees, trembly voice, offfff-key notes
if you need a description it'd be 'mouse in front of 3 cats'.
Thanks Baby for yr kind patience & words of encouragement (:
despite my teary-eyed-walking-zombie stance thereafter.
HURHUR i have also come up with a brilliant solution:
I will intake alcohol in future, say 1/4 tipsy first
to ease away that part of unnecessary self-awareness!
yay yay its so going to work.
_
Yins's 21st update tonight!
gotta prep to meet favorite Beegees
for some yummy dimsum supper.
i am HUNGRY byebye bye :O
(be it judges, peers or even.... friends)
has given me severe performance anxiety.
i was really disappointed that day
not with the outcome or the event,
but because it made me realize
i am going to be my own destruction.
no one else seems to bother much about
the camera rolling, the glaring spotlight above,
the people listening nor the straight-faced judges.
on a wtf contrary those were all that engulfed my mind.
weakened knees, trembly voice, offfff-key notes
if you need a description it'd be 'mouse in front of 3 cats'.
Thanks Baby for yr kind patience & words of encouragement (:
despite my teary-eyed-walking-zombie stance thereafter.
HURHUR i have also come up with a brilliant solution:
I will intake alcohol in future, say 1/4 tipsy first
to ease away that part of unnecessary self-awareness!
yay yay its so going to work.
_
Yins's 21st update tonight!
gotta prep to meet favorite Beegees
for some yummy dimsum supper.
i am HUNGRY byebye bye :O
