after each downpour i get tired.
not only does the vision blur, my mind gets blurry too.
and think "maybe giving up will end this unnecessary misery." i can return his freedom and dreams, then i can move on with my life waiting for next happiness to arrive.
yet before tomorrow comes i alr know what's gonna happen. in the morning. issues of tonight would seem to have been sucked away thoroughly all away; in the morning. i'd suddenly be motivated to keep holding on.
motivation by what i don't know. thankful for it though
because this time i really want it to last
- to stick on a lifetime.
somewhere inside i'm fully aware of my direction.
fucking hell sick of non permanent relationships
which don't last for more than a year.
yeah yeah you tell me so what if it's 3 years? or 30 years?
even marriages get torn apart more often than not, right.
still... fuck all that reality.
don't care if the world wants to see us stay or break
i've just decided to make this relationship right
because should we take another wrong way down
swear i might go worship the nunnery.
short terms wasted my time. sick of the
'very sweet-sweet-turned bland-turned sour-turned ugly'
kinda cycle.
shall endure thru' for the sake of one thing:
our coco/momo mission.
(stupid. silly. far-fetched. impossible. pointless.)
throw it in i'll be replacing pessimism with Baby's phrase:
impossible is nothing. hope hopefully so. :]
BigSis headed to Thailand today on 1oam flight later.
4D3N shopping trip. rwrah i'm gonna be superrr lonely..
superrr awaiting them to be back with truckload of prez!
full day tutorials for me 6hr frm now & i'm wide awake.
can't believe this post actually ends in an alright mood.
hahah THE POWER OF HOPE! >X
i'd be damn big-hearted and forgiving
learn to close an eye to my dislikes
remember i'm loved when i feel forgotten
not be overly sensitive to things i can be cool about;
and these should get me through...
"for I am Queen Cool."
*******
the Very Merry series of 3/4 TBG:
very merry TBG! (esp when 4/4)
and think "maybe giving up will end this unnecessary misery." i can return his freedom and dreams, then i can move on with my life waiting for next happiness to arrive.
yet before tomorrow comes i alr know what's gonna happen. in the morning. issues of tonight would seem to have been sucked away thoroughly all away; in the morning. i'd suddenly be motivated to keep holding on.
motivation by what i don't know. thankful for it though
because this time i really want it to last
- to stick on a lifetime.
somewhere inside i'm fully aware of my direction.
fucking hell sick of non permanent relationships
which don't last for more than a year.
yeah yeah you tell me so what if it's 3 years? or 30 years?
even marriages get torn apart more often than not, right.
still... fuck all that reality.
don't care if the world wants to see us stay or break
i've just decided to make this relationship right
because should we take another wrong way down
swear i might go worship the nunnery.
short terms wasted my time. sick of the
'very sweet-sweet-turned bland-turned sour-turned ugly'
kinda cycle.
shall endure thru' for the sake of one thing:
our coco/momo mission.
(stupid. silly. far-fetched. impossible. pointless.)
throw it in i'll be replacing pessimism with Baby's phrase:
impossible is nothing. hope hopefully so. :]
BigSis headed to Thailand today on 1oam flight later.
4D3N shopping trip. rwrah i'm gonna be superrr lonely..
superrr awaiting them to be back with truckload of prez!
full day tutorials for me 6hr frm now & i'm wide awake.
can't believe this post actually ends in an alright mood.
hahah THE POWER OF HOPE! >X
i'd be damn big-hearted and forgiving
learn to close an eye to my dislikes
remember i'm loved when i feel forgotten
not be overly sensitive to things i can be cool about;
and these should get me through...
"for I am Queen Cool."
*******
the Very Merry series of 3/4 TBG:
very merry TBG! (esp when 4/4)