2010 with Grandma =)

 

Every time I catch sight of beloved Grand-Aunt's photo by my desk I am reminded how unpredictable life can be.

To never assume that time stretches for anyone of us, till we get down to doing certain things. Time doesn't.

Note to self: Visit Grandma with Punkie soon.

by Grace Dorman

I couldn't have felt more touched this morning, eh 感动啦 ! In spite of the situations that caused me to derail from work for a crucial 3 months, they softly let me be. Opportunity, 1-1 coachings, motivation what not. I had them all. And this morning............... :) Truly grateful. I'm glad I did not choose to disappoint.

It was silly, to let my mind be preoccupied by things and people I cannot change.

Mondays are blue but new.

 

We keep waiting for that perfect moment while all the right ones pass us by.

 

 

Okay okay. Less emotions, let's forward to practical talk.

 

Sunday's appointment

I will not deny the temptation of a solid $3,000 added into my bank account every month.

The temptation of no longer having to Google Map on public transport day after day.

It is now that I realize how BIG our 'tiny' red dot actually is.

I will not deny how tempting it is: the idea of retreating back into my comfort zone.

No rejection slip. No last-minute cancellations of scheduled meetings. No need to sell my time freely.

How nice to sit and rock in an office chair, finish up repetitive tasks and go to bed without worries. Right?

 

But....

 

There are too many people I cannot afford to let down. My director, mentors and colleagues who helped me thus far.

The friends who trusted me unconditionally and bought their policies from a newbie like me.

They never questioned/doubted how long I'd stay here. They simply trusted me as an individual.

Daddypops who disagreed till the end of the world but ultimately said 'okay go break-a-bone' haha.

Punkie who pushes me to pursue not just what's good, but what challenges me to be my best.

Even these awesome clients that have given me (a complete stranger) a chance to prove myself.

My closest friends who always lend support during bad unfulfilling days at work.
 

It's too early in the game to quit. I know they will love me whatever my choice.

But I guess I shall pass up the safer opportunity this time. Continue on my little BIG venture, adventure.
Yay for Carol !!!!!!! ;•D

Today, I missed another opportunity to catch Insidious: Chapter 2.

I decided to back out again. I don't know what is wrong with me.

It's just a movie and there's no need to be unnecessarily selective of the company.

Somehow though... I cringe at the thought of one-on-one 'dates' now.

I hate the idea of having to watch my manners like crunching on popcorn softly
(not because I want to impress the other party but rather a form of courtesy).

My job requires me to meet strangers on an almost daily basis. I have to think on my feet, strike up conversations.

So where's the big deal in accepting an invitation from a friend right?

Well if it's one friend you haven't met in a long while, an ex-colleague or an acquaintance,
some conscious effort must be made to fill the silence. And I would do so in order to earn a decent paycheck.

But when it cuts into my personal time and space, then surely nope.

I want to watch movies with people I like and whom I feel entirely comfortable with.

Is this a newly-developed OCD of mine? Haha.

I never did the 'dating' thing. There is no in-between for me.

But at the very least I bothered to hangout with random friends.
Am I transforming into a hermit crab with age? Shiit.

 

At the moment if I'm out with the opposite sex (alone) you can probably be sure we're best of buddies.

Either that or someone I superbly like. Enough to risk an awkward experience.

Or..... MY CLIENT. HAHAHAHA.

'Without sounding pessimistic, I learned that I do not believe in marriage.

I believe in a commitment you make in your heart.
There's no paper that will make you stay.

People should get married at the end of the road, not the beginning.'

—Diane Kruger

Somewhat true.

FIRST ELEPHANT SHOW☺

BAHAHHAHAHA isn't Punkie cute?!!
As you can tell she couldn't understand my excitement over 大象小象，but accompanied me all the same.

Star Cruiseeeeeeeee = eat and play and eat somemore. My kinda thing.